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Now onto Eclipse! I actually hated New Moon, except for the ending. I hope to finish Eclipse this weekend…I hope I don’t scream at Bella…

Wow. It’s a cool language. I’m using the wikibooks as an intro. I have to say the grammar really throws me off as well as recognising vocabulary.

However, I am working on it!

Arrgh, Hebrew is much easier with its three-letter roots…but that’s for another rant.

Good luck al!

A while ago, my sister brought home an Ohio Driver’s manual. Prior to leaving, she extemporaneously brought up driving. Or maybe I did. Anyway, I asked her – the one person who has always believed in me – to teach me to drive. I am a special person for many reasons.

I am a special person because I only have one eye. Due to an accident, I am blind in my left eye. Or, you know, functionally blind – I can see colours and the like. I have, corrected, 20/40 vision. The doctors say I will probably not become blind in my right eye.

I am a special person because I have crappy reaction times, due to, largely, a need for pain medications to function. Before, it was razor sharp. Now, not so much.This is apparently able to overcome with training.

But anyway, I am so tired of avoiding the train, and not simply missing it. For those that don’t know American Sign Language, there’s a phrase, TRAIN-GO-SORRY, which means that an opportunity (train) is gone. Am I avoiding this train? Yes. This particular train has blazing headlights in the shape of Acceptance, and Acceptance is my various “specials.”

I know a doctor that became blind due to cancer. They actually removed his eye. He drives.

I would rather miss the train than avoid it. It’s really unknown whether I can drive. I would like to try, I really would. This may mean I have to drive differently, more carefully, slower, with more buffer room in between cars, etc.

I take safety very seriously. If HaShem has destined for me not to drive I will not. However, I’d like to try, earnestly first. Nothing wrong with that. It’s not a live-or-die goal so if I don’t make it, it is what it is. I will just live close to a bus stop.

I’m going for a test at the BMV on Wednesday when I come home. Then, assuming the test goes well, my sister and I are going to a parking lot or somewhere to practise. We will do much practise on Thanksgiving, again assuming the test goes well.

I accept that I do not know, I accept that it is HaShem’s decision what my abilities are, and I am at peace.