Finally I passed two months
Lots of change in my personality happened in those 2 months
now I enjoy my life more than before,If i put a list of what to do in one day i stick with it (and it was impossible before )
I fill my free time with more healthy activities . I used to go to gym every day and i start to get back in shape.when I tired of studying i play chess . I’m trying to cut off watching T.v . The internet had been disconnecting in the last month but today it get back and after I saw the green light of internet in my router the bad thought jumped up in my mind to open some dirty sites but i dealt with them and I’m planning to install k9filter in my PC to never see those bad sites again in my life . I know how to bypass it but It’ll give me extra time to think of what I’m doing and how I’m ruining my entire life and future when opening these sites.
I hope all of you guys doing well in your battles against this addiction
Finally half of the road to the 90 days YBOP dare
I missed you guys but the internet was disconnected here from more than 15 days
Since there is no internet there were no porn and now I feel like I’m a different person now i get a few temptations in the last 15 days but every time i managed it with one term (there is nothing deserve to spoil this amazing streak on it ) and day after day this bad self of me ( the one who want the pleasure and the erotic scenes and thoughts)
become weaker and smaller
and the new me who respect his values and don’t cheat on him self and see the best things in girls (the face, eyes and all the emotions with it ) become stronger and dominant
now I’m not afraid to stay away at home because i can control my self I have the power to do what i want to do
and another thing i noticed that alot of procrastinating time goes away because when you respect your self you stick with your commitments
now when i want to study i spent the time studying
when i want to work i spent the time working
no delays no postbones no lets watch a tv no lets see some erotic sites all of this was deleted from my life
in the last week i had been studying 9 hours a day and it was a big number for me compare to what i was doing when i was on this addiction (barely pass 3 hours )
I hope you are all doing good in your fight against this addiction
and i can say that all this fights and struggles are worth it.
10 days to make it a month
I’m doing very will i faced some urges but i know how to deal with them
there is a lot of time and i have to know how to manage it since the porn in the past was taking a lot of hours of my day and know these hours are free so i must know how to use them and not spoil them with out do nothing good for my life .
now I’m hitting the Gym regularly every day and I’m building some muscles now :)
in the past i can’t get my self in regular system because the porn was fucking every thing but know when i say i want to do something i do it on time and not postponed it like the old days
in another way I’m getting some emotional changes with my family so I care about them now and i spent sometimes with my mom and dad and help them when they ask me to help and i think they feel the change too because in the past i was like a numb & I didn’t care about anyone and didn’t listen to anyone and i thought I was on the right way but i was wrong.
I going to make it one month i will not surrender to any urges or temptation that hit me because now i know what i want I want to defeat this addiction and get a girlfriend or just a friend and chase my life dream.
I hope you are doing good guys .