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if george saunders can i do it i should be able to eventually do it too. I’m 17. I still have hope. Practice writing, read and study books.

i’m only 17 so i guess i still have hope here even though my writing sucks. i’ll start by writing everyday and trying to get through all the past pulitzer prize winning novels. I’m reading middlesex and angeles ashes’ right now…they’re both amazing.

stop expecting the first draft to be wonderful. just write. half of writing is editing and if you haven’t written anything you won’t have anything to edit. 3 pages a day from now on.

just watched diablo cody take it. That was inspiring. Plan on reading some books on the subject, taking some classes in college and watching all of the films that won and were nominated in the past. Starting with The Usual Suspects because it has the play now feature on netflicks. Also wanna read or watch (if i can) all of winners and runners up for the best play tony award. Should also probably watch all of the best adapted screenplay winners. Want to do a comedy/drama thing… will start soon. I’m even considering majoring in film.

ate too much today, and yesterday. NEED to get out of the house for this to work. I should get a laptop.

signed up for a cc class.

going to loose 20lbs before college. No excuses anymore. I’ve hit the deadline. I will loose a lb every week until i begins. This means at least 60mins of exersize a day and way less food. I have all the healthy food. I just need to eat it in smaller quantities. Ok, so its the 15th. I should loose 2lbs in February, 4 in march, 4 in april, 4 in may, and maybe like one more in june. That’s 15, i guess i could still loose twenty. I just need to bump up the exersize load and maybe spend more time out of the house. Next time i want to snack i’m just going to the library instead. I’m taking some community college classes right now. those will help me get out more. I’m going to make Thursday be the day where I finish all of my homework and do my guitar practice. Find time to exersize everyday. I’m going to go take a walk now.

i’m pretty sure i’m ready for the written test. I’m scheduled to take it next friday. woo.

i’m finding my self progressing more easily with writing. so yeah, starting a band is no longer the #1 priority, writing is. With the popularity of mcsweeney’s and stuff there is a certain level of rock stardom in the literary world which might be able to take the place of some of what i’m looking to get out of this band thing. I still think it would be fun to do, but i’m going to put more of my time into reading and writing now because I think I’m more likely to excel in that realm.

didn’t think i was old enough to join, but i am, so i’m going to. woo. i’m really excited, now i can finally learn how to lift weights properly. i want to try and exercise 60-90 mins a day like the American health association or whatever recommends.

ok i’m starting this up again.
today i ate about 15 m and m’s which wasn’t good.
also had a bit too much cereal.
I feel really full right now, so i don’t think i’m going to eat for the rest of the day.
I’m going to take a bike ride now.
nevermind it has started to rain…
I think the cold weather and rain has been what’s causing me to put on about 5lbs, i need to find a way to get out anyway.
i have a flute lesson today.
i NEED to exersize before that comes around.
i’ll practice now so don’t have to do it later when the weather could be better.

i’m not making enough progress on this. I need to find my stupid pamphlet and study it. now.

i had too much ice cream but i also took a nice long bike ride.
That was really a tough work out. I’m going to start biking instead of walking everyday. I’m really excited I think if I keep it up I’ll be able to meet my goal and loose 5lbs by the end of January. I’d just love to be nice and skinny for college, and it seems like a reasonable goal now that I’ve discovered the wonders of bike riding. woo.

i’ve stopped walking because it is getting cooler. Soultion: get out there earlier.
I’m getting really into guitar right now and hope to eventually start a band. The guitar playing distracts me from food and being in the band gives me motivation to look good. Last I checked I weighed 140, not good. No more stupid cereal and bread snacking.
Become a picky eater like my sister.

1. finish and understand everything in the idiot’s guide to music composition.
2. Learn more essential scales/chords/chord progressions
3. Memorize 10 songs
4. Get through 5 standard/tab guitar books, learn the neck well
5. Record 20 good songs
audition for a young intermediate level indie band
have this all done by Groundhog’s day (So, work constantly)

to study everyday tomorrow

my goal is to get through one mel bay style book a week.
I’ll go through the whole, or half of a book a day sight reading and then the next day i’ll use the metronome and alternate like that.

are the first step

i want to be able to do some basic stuff on the drums even though my main focus is guitar

working on the jazz theory book by mark levine. seems to have potential to be able to get me through the kinks in my understanding of songwriting theory.