I’d love to work in Canada over summer.
ihaveyourkitten's Life List
1. Stop watching TV
2. live my dreams instead of dreaming my life
3. get rid of all my clutter
4. read a book a week
5. get my braces off
6. Live in near-solitude in another country for a few months
7. find a part time job
8. finish my script
9. work abroad
10. speak french
11. be smart
How I did it: I joined a 4 week course. It involved focusing on my breathing and bringing my awareness back. I would say the bringing my awareness back was the essential habit that I took away from the course and counting your breaths (gently) helps to do that. I was surprised by how numb I felt but that was only in the meditation centre (I just couldn't relax there). I did not practice the breathing technique at home but rather&nbs… Read how I did it…
How I did it: I already wrote this and 43T 'lost' my info. so i'm angry, but... - I just changed my actions once i got in from work. I made dinner then went upstairs & avoided the TV room.It's that straightforward but I have to keep on writing and writing ... is this 150 characters yet? I'm so vexed that i want to watch TV again. Read how I did it…
How I did it: I just found a really useful website and taught myself around 5+ letters each day for about 10-15 mins per day(including how to write it). On the 6th day I just went over what i'd learned. I found it an easy alphabet to learn because I quite liked drawing the unusual shaped letters. Read how I did it…
i found a point where i am not having unrealistic dreams. the big focus for me was on having realistic goals so i have started writing and doing more practical, creative things. i have stopped about half of my daydreaming since leaving work. i can’t say im ‘happy’ as i am ruminating quite a bit – usually at night – about ‘what if i don’t achieve anything in life?’ and i feel an urgency to get a job and join the rat race again (not that i want to but the whole ‘gaps in your resume’ thing is pulling me in). i also don’t feel as if the UK is my home and California seems to be ‘calling’ but I have no rational reason as to why. I’m not wishing for it to happen. I just feel unsettled. Ultimately I just want to be happy and I understand happiness to be a choice. I have not let go of ‘yearning’ and I am not sure if I want to as I associate it with achievement but I am doing things now and that is the main thing. I’m full of doubts but they don’t stop me. I’m shit scared :).
TV is basically high school in waveform (or however tv is now transmitted – i wouldn’t know as i watched tv when i should have been studying for school). Yesterday I watched daytime tv and then wendy williams’ hot topics (very addictive) and it’s always the same thing whenever I watch TV – some celeb girl is insulted over her appearance (really dont need to keep watching crap like that) – this time it was melissa mccarthy (i hope that critic gets punched out). Jesus. I am trying to really find an alternative culture to the mainstream which serves nothing remotely challenging, interesting or loving – especially not for women!
i’m tired of it all…