I'm doing 11 things
I’d love to work in Canada over summer.
ihaveyourkitten's Life List
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1. Stop watching TV
4 entries . 9 cheers413 people -
2. live my dreams instead of dreaming my life
2 entries . 3 cheers180 people -
3. get rid of all my clutter
1 entry . 6 cheers1,130 people -
4. read a book a week
6 entries . 5 cheers809 people -
5. get my braces off
1 entry . 1 cheer482 people -
6. Live in near-solitude in another country for a few months
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7. find a part time job
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8. finish my script
55 people -
9. work abroad
1 entry345 people -
10. speak french
569 people -
11. be smart
225 people
How I did it
It made me
disconnected 
How I did it: I joined a 4 week course. It involved focusing on my breathing and bringing my awareness back. I would say the bringing my awareness back was the essential habit that I took away from the course and counting your breaths (gently) helps to do that. I was surprised by how numb I felt but that was only in the meditation centre (I just couldn't relax there). I did not practice the breathing technique at home but rather&nbs… Read how I did it…
It made me
less overwhelmed
How I did it: I already wrote this and 43T 'lost' my info. so i'm angry, but... - I just changed my actions once i got in from work. I made dinner then went upstairs & avoided the TV room.It's that straightforward but I have to keep on writing and writing ... is this 150 characters yet? I'm so vexed that i want to watch TV again. Read how I did it…
It made me
Satisfied. 
How I did it: I just found a really useful website and taught myself around 5+ letters each day for about 10-15 mins per day(including how to write it). On the 6th day I just went over what i'd learned. I found it an easy alphabet to learn because I quite liked drawing the unusual shaped letters. Read how I did it…
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Recent entries
i found a point where i am not having unrealistic dreams. the big focus for me was on having realistic goals so i have started writing and doing more practical, creative things. i have stopped about half of my daydreaming since leaving work. i can’t say im ‘happy’ as i am ruminating quite a bit – usually at night – about ‘what if i don’t achieve anything in life?’ and i feel an urgency to get a job and join the rat race again (not that i want to but the whole ‘gaps in your resume’ thing is pulling me in). i also don’t feel as if the UK is my home and California seems to be ‘calling’ but I have no rational reason as to why. I’m not wishing for it to happen. I just feel unsettled. Ultimately I just want to be happy and I understand happiness to be a choice. I have not let go of ‘yearning’ and I am not sure if I want to as I associate it with achievement but I am doing things now and that is the main thing. I’m full of doubts but they don’t stop me. I’m shit scared :).
TV is basically high school in waveform (or however tv is now transmitted – i wouldn’t know as i watched tv when i should have been studying for school). Yesterday I watched daytime tv and then wendy williams’ hot topics (very addictive) and it’s always the same thing whenever I watch TV – some celeb girl is insulted over her appearance (really dont need to keep watching crap like that) – this time it was melissa mccarthy (i hope that critic gets punched out). Jesus. I am trying to really find an alternative culture to the mainstream which serves nothing remotely challenging, interesting or loving – especially not for women!
i’m tired of it all…
