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1. Make complacency obsolete
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2. Stop taking crap
1 person
3. i want to stop being jealous
2 people
4. stop over analysing
6 people
5. truly love life
1 person
6. find happiness from within
2 people
7. stop comparing
9 people
8. accept what is dealt to me
1 person
9. stop fighting
29 people
10. never loose control
1 entry 1 person
11. take care of my car
7 people
12. embrace solitude
1 entry 4 people
13. i want to accept...
2 entries 1 person
14. Stop wanting to be wanted
1 entry 1 person
15. I want to be beautiful
1 entry 54 people
16. Stop being aggressive
3 people
17. Being real
1 entry 2 people
18. Raining fish
1 entry 1 person
19. Stop spending money on people
1 person
20. Say NO!
1 entry 77 people
21. Create my own.....
1 entry 8 people
22. Stop being so naive
1 entry 58 people
23. Be completely independent
1 entry 63 people
24. Conquer my fear of frogs
1 entry 1 person
25. Stop Caring too much
2 entries 2 people
26. finish my degree
1 entry 2,537 people
27. be in control of my emotions
1 entry 16 people
28. Stop punishing myself
1 entry 6 people
29. Love me
65 people
30. Start Exercising
406 people
31. Eating right
1 person
32. Save Money
14,725 people
33. Start Committing
1 person
34. Live for me
24 people
35. make less assumptions
3 people
36. Dance
2,326 people
37. Quit smoking
1 entry . 1 cheer 8,504 people
38. accept reality
1 entry 9 people

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Untitled 1 month ago

I’ve “quit” a couple times. he last time was the longest. But now i’ve bout a pack again, had now…4 out of the pack on separate occasions…

I use it to redirect my thoughts of pain….and my self depression continues….

Oct 17, 09:56AM PDT | 0 comments

accept reality

Untitled 1 month ago

I’m not sure if this is the right words to describe what i’m trying to do, what needs to be done.

I need to move on. Cut the cords, forget the past, realize that i have no reason to feel the way that i do.

I need to accept that I am not that girl. That girl that every guy wants to be with, that girl.

That girl that any guy wants to be with. Highly depressing I know.

I want things, i know what i want. But I’ve realized that with him, I’ll never have what i want. It’s too late. Lines have already been crossed and too many time so to erase. The marks are embedded.

I’ve wanted to find someone or experience someone finding me and finding out within themselves that they want to be with me. But now it’s too late for that to happen with him.

I think that i may be in love yes, but, physically so. H…There’s no point to continuing that thought.

He doesn’t want to be with me.

At the end of it all, it really doesn’t matter why.

Maybe my thinking is naive, but i stand true to it.

I believe that if someone loves….who said anything about love….therein lies my problem.

I regress a bit…..

I believe…

....that if someone finds himself wanting to be with someonelse, then nothing would stop that person from being with the person they want to be with.

Is that obsessive

I believe that the person would….he would see my flaws, but the things that he likes in me would shine brighter, my negatives would not be a reason for him to not want to be with me. So the fact that there are reasons, regardless of the context of whom those reasons lie with, the underlying fact is that there are reasons. And this is the reality i need to face….accept.

.........but what are the actions that go together with facing, accepting something?

I am afraid to feel and react, because i am afraid that if i do that then nothing will happen on his end as a result to my actions….

I guess that that statement by itself exposes my inability to accept reality. I just don’t want to realize that it’s an impossibility.

Oct 17, 09:52AM PDT | 0 comments

Raining fish

Untitled 3 months ago

I would like to visit Honduras and experience rain of fish. It happens between May and July every year.

Aug 26, 07:41AM PDT | 0 comments

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