Baby Mama

YAY!!!! This is significant progress! I organized all of my husband’s childhood photographs and they are ready to go for the scrapbooker. This is real, significant progress. I am so pleased with myself. Now I need to go through the “box of memories”, organize all of the certificates and other things (into categories like kindergarten, elementary school, bar mitzvah, etc) to make it easy for the scrapbooker and then hand it over to her. But this was a big job and so I am proud that I accomplished this!

We continue fighting. He gets so offended so easily and is so sensitive that what starts off as just a conversation quickly escalates to door slamming, yelling, obscenity shouting, and lots and lots of anger. And this is front of the baby, nothing is shielded from her. I can take words and things, but I can’t take the uncontrolled behavior and rage and yelling, that is what really gets me. Say anything, but don’t yell, don’t take it out on the door or anything else. Control it.

Of course, much of the blame is that “I make him feel like shit” or “I say the nasty comments” or “I am so critical” or “I don’t respect him”. I know I need to change in order to improve our marriage, as does he, but I need to focus on what I can do. It just doesn’t happen overnight, and I know I have changed in the past 5 years even if he THINKS he can’t detect it, I know I have.

Oh well, will keep trying…

Had another fight today. Not good. Where am I going wrong?