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Umm..so another one of my entries is about my alopecia and I haven’t accepted but A woman GOD BLESS HER!!! made me realize that I haven’t actually accepted it and I need to, instead of thinking God turned His back on me and to ask him to give me my hair back but to ask him to give me more strength to deal with it

I love skateboarding…Honestly it’s a huge part of my life but I suck at it and I don’t like doing it in front of people and I want to get better and show off!!!!!!!!

Well…I’m 15 and I am in the 10th grade. While most people are up getting ready for school and stuff I get to sleep in for about an extra 30 minutes more than they do, becauase I have Alopecia. So I’ve had alopecia since I was 6 years old.. I was still in Kindergarden when my hair began to fall out, so honestly I should be used to it by now because I’ve lived longer without it than I have with it, but my life is still hard because looking good is the most important thing right now( yes even more imporptant than school!!!!) Now I know there are worse things and i try not to think about it too much because then i feel guilty for feeling more pity for myself than I do for other people sometimes, but my life is my reference point and I can’t really help other people until I get help, because what good would I be to someone else’s cause if I’m not fully dedicated to it? Now I don’t want to sound self-centered which I’m sure I’m sounding right about now ,but I say whats on my mind and I can’t help that, can I? Not trying to sound insensitive to older people because I know it’s hard for you too… butI beleive it’s harder for teens and children and i’m surre you can agree because in today’s world the youth is so vicious that the one’s being bullied or teased are going into deep states of depression, suicidal mode, and resort to violence( including the kind that kills), but now I’m getting onto somewhat political and social issues which I didn’t mean to do I just want all the people whp read this to know how I feel and what goes on itn my life. My life is complicated and AU only makes it worse. Because of AU I cry everynight and often I cry myself to sleep because it’s only an added pressure. What teenage girl want’s to spend everyday wondering if her hair is on right or if someone will find out, or what will happen if they do. What teenage girlwants to wonder everyday if someone goes/going out with her how they will react if they find out that their hair is not real? I used to have a strong belief in God but ever since last year it’s deteriorated to almost nothing I’ve asked Him to give my hair back since the day I realized what it was and why it was so important and He did, He gave me back little peach-fuzz but everytime He did it would just fall out again so I learned not to gwet my hopes up too high, and not to trust him and I want to but I just can’t any more. So that’s my life