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you wouldnt think this would be hard to do.
i am so over everything. i am sick of going to work. i am sick of spending money. i am sick of spending time with people. i am sick of making plans to go out so it looks like im doing something with my life, which then leads to spending money. i am sick of making goals and not acheiving them. i am sick, sick of me.
i just want to be happy. and life just keeps repeating it’s self.
sometimes i wish my head would just stop thinking.
i wish i got some sort of satisfaction out of life.
my goal now is to be happy.

i failed…miserably…lol.
everything i did in the test was a pass and fine but i tailgated a car, im such a fuckwit. now because of the new laws that have come in since i have gotten my licence and it is about to expire i now need to do another 50hrs of driving, what the fuck, i sit for my test, dont pass and now fuck more hours….grr..kil me already!
but then im a big believer in youll get it when ur ready.

i am going for my red p tomorrow i am so excited its making me nervous, i feel like jumping and peeing…omg i am so fucking confident i have no room in my brain for failure although i do have a back up plan, woo! can not wait if ur out there please wish me luck =]