I'm doing 37 things
to play the waiting game. we both know it’s going to happen; every day he gently nudges me to settle on a ring. i’ve finally found the one that i want, and i’m going to tell him as soon as i can be positive that i won’t wake up one day and hate it :p when i was a little girl, i dreamt that my engagement would be a surprise, and would completely catch me off guard; here i am a lot more realistic and a little wiser years later, and not only is it not going to be a surprise (thankfully though-i have learned that i am not the kind of girl that takes kindly to being taken aback), but i know the exact date. the anticipation is killing me, and makes me believe that expected or not, the day he proposes will be one of the best days of my life.
Ki's Life List
-
1. not procrastinate
2 cheers196 people -
2. get engaged
1 entry632 people -
3. lose weight
1 entry40,805 people -
4. Get my belly button pierced
971 people -
5. Get a tattoo
22,047 people -
6. write more
1 entry . 2 cheers3,769 people -
7. astral project
262 people -
8. smile at everyone who meets my eye
1 entry . 2 cheers102 people -
9. Get more piercings
698 people -
10. create the soundtrack to my life
1 cheer1,910 people -
11. go on a juice fast.
121 people -
12. go antiquing
6 people -
13. Read all the books in my "must read" pile
1 cheer1,110 people -
14. have lucid dreams.
86 people -
15. dive into a waterfall
1 entry . 1 cheer2 people -
16. Speak French fluently
2,288 people -
17. learn Japanese
10,615 people -
18. learn sign language
1 cheer8,465 people -
19. See the Aurora Borealis and the Aurora Australis
1 cheer150 people -
20. write a book
30,182 people -
21. kiss in the rain
15,300 people -
22. Live an unconventional life
91 people -
23. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
7,969 people -
24. Become Financially Independent
6,300 people -
25. live happily ever after
660 people -
26. live in New York City
2,884 people -
27. Design and build my own house
1,697 people -
28. Read my Bible more
568 people -
29. scan all my old photographs
255 people -
30. Read more books
1 cheer11,816 people -
31. try absinthe
289 people -
32. say 'hi' to at least one stranger each day
223 people -
33. learn italian
6,451 people -
34. be the change i want to see in the world
348 people -
35. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
7,317 people -
36. Have a baby
6,260 people -
37. learn to sew
4,040 people
Recent entries
So, I made eye contact with an older gentleman at the mall a few days ago.
I gave a polite(small)smile.
He just stared at me.
And though I know I’ll probably never see him again, or anyone else that this happens with, the thought of a repeat really unnerves me.
This is getting so frustrating. Yeah, sure I’m losing weight; but I’m going about it the completely wrong way, as it’s the only way that’s worked so far.
Sure I’d like to be a little bit thinner. But I’m not in this state of total unsatisfaction with myself and I’m compromising my health.
So maybe the end doesn’t justify the means.
