I always joke about how I’m always battling them… But my space is total chaos. It may be sanitary, but I can’t find the things I need from day to day anymore. I should be in charge of my things, but my things are in charge of me. It’s my space and I taking it back. It’s ok to throw things away if you don’t use them anymore! So that’s it…20 days or else!
indieookami's Life List
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1. figure out what i want to do with my life
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2. graduate college with a masters
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3. feel the fear and do it anyway
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4. give back to the world
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5. NEVER apologize for who I am!
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6. Join the Peace Corps
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7. meditate daily
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8. learn to keep my room clean
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9. make new friends
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10. become fluent in at least 4 languages
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11. Learn Japanese
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12. stop procrastinating
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13. I want to tavel internationally
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14. see the northern lights
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15. Understand quantum mechanics
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16. get in shape
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17. write a novel and get it published
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18. improve my kempo
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19. Go skydiving
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20. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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21. Get my nose pierced.
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22. Have enough money, to not worry about having enough money
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23. Actually meet face-to-face with someone from 43 Things
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24. become less enraged at instances of stupidity
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25. Be the person I always thought i would be
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26. Swim with dolphins
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27. make a smaller ecological footprint
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28. Be in an exceptionally good mood as often as possible
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29. Learn to play the guitar
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30. Make all my goals S.M.A.R.T.
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31. backpack through Europe
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32. learn survival skills
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33. Cultivate a beautiful mind!!
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34. Live with Passion and Integrity
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35. be a leader
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36. fall asleep outside watching the stars with someone i care about
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37. Say "no" every time i feel like it and not feel guilty
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I work with a woman who reminds me alot of how I would be if I let myself do all the little bratty things I think about when I’m angry. In a way I think maybe she’s a lot more honest than I am. Even though I think it’s appalling that she feels entitled to whatever she wants, whenever she wants; she doesn’t lie about it. Oddly enough when I don’t want to throttle her I find her oddly charming.
The part I feel guilty about is that I’m taking the moral high ground, she knows it, and it bugs her. I’m not really taking the right path, because she does hurt my feelings. Partially I pretend she doesn’t bother me to piss her off, partially because I hope if I ignore her she’ll get bored and leave me alone.
Mostly I feel like I’m giving her way to much of my energy.
So I’ve hit a bit of a dry spell lately. When I can make to time to meditate, it seems like it’s getting harder to make the mental white noise stop. Or I’ll go off on weird thought tangents. erg.
