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I have not fallen in “love” with someone in a long time. I don’t dwell on it much anymore, and I am no longer afraid if it were to happen. I have grown in a year.

I got my license :}. Now I must save for the car.

I do this everyday at work. I love when people DON’T respond back.

I’m workin on it… so far i’m up to about 40 or so?

I’ve been taking tai/chi & yoga as a class.
If you really get into it, it can be REALLY relaxing.

I wanna get into this further than just a class in school.
Practice more at home and then maybe join a yoga class (( provided i get some money!)

eh, my life is pretty simple as it is.

i wanna be able to love without fear of getting hurt.
i dont even want to get into a relationship with anyone because i fear the inevitable break up and getting hurt.

its like a stupid process of getting to know someone, getting with them, and then bam, its over.
so ive given up on relationships and “love” and all that bullshit.
but im more “afraid” of getting back into that.

eh

Starting June 23 or 24th, i want to record any odd dreams that i may have.

1 – Give myself at least 2 hours to get ready prior to going out.
2 – On the days i don’t have work, wake up at about 9 oclock & be showered and dressed by 11 30.
3 – Buy a planner.

I have to slowly ease into this after i can learn to say hi to at least one person per day.

i can apply this to when im around new people.
i’m good at breaking the ice the majority of the time, but i have to meet new people and make new friends.

Starting June 22nd, 2006, i have to say Hi to AT LEAST one person a day.

“Just for today, do not worry”
“Just for today, do not anger”
“Sho gratitude to every living thing”

i need to stop dwelling on the past and just learn from it.
i’m slowly but surely doing this, but ofcourse it takes time.

i need to write.
i need to learn how to open up a little more and let my guard down just a tad.

BREATH.
i have to learn to sometimes just stop, and breathe, and forget about everything for a moment.

seriously.
sometimes i have to make the world stop.
only for a moment.

i have to learn to take in all the good and stop dwelling on the bad sometimes.

self esteem, self esteem, self esteem!
i have to gain more confidence in myself and know that its okay to be without a significant other.

i’ve pretty much become comfortable with this.
i just have to learn to embrace myself.

im too considerate for others sometimes and i dont think about myself.

from now on, i have to be able to say no and not feel bad about it.
i think i can though.

I have to prioritize myself.
I’m always putting things off and its taking a toll on me.

Starting now, NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!

lets see how long this lasts.

3 sets of 20 crunches.
15 reps/set of 3 sets of walking lunges.
20 reps/set of 4 sets of squats.

Every other day, i must do this!!

I have to force myself not to take naps at night!
From now on, if i take a nap, it has to be before 6.
THERE!

i have to stop spending money on things i dont need.