intoodeep89

i’m only 18 years old! i have super cronic depression, i cry at least 10 times a day :( and now this. this ringing started after going to a rave in the beginning of march. my friends wanted to take me because they knew i had really bad depression. they thought it would cheer me up. ever since i laid in my bed the night of the rave i have had this ringing. sometimes its just a straight ringing. some times its like mores code. it was only in my right ear at first now it fluctuates. when traffic and music and noise is around i can barley hear it and sometime i forget about it, but then when it is quiet again i hear it loud and clear. its so annoying. college is hard, life is hard, working is hard. everything is so hard i feel like i am going mad. help? i just need someone to talk to

I am 18 years old. I am a senior in high school, but do Running Start so i attend the community college. I am totally and completely depressed. i cry night and day. i think of suicide daily. I am now on celexa, 30 milligrams a day. i have been taking for 5 weeks and have seen no results at all. I have been with my my boyfriend for over 2 years. he says he wants to help me, but it feels like a lot of my sadness comes from him. He is always busy, he has friends, girls that find him attractive and funny and he and everyone else finds him very talented and completely likable. I cannot sleep well at night. sometimes he spends the night with me and falls right asleep. I could say i am jealous. I am always worried about him. he says i am driving him insane by always getting jealous about him hanging out with other girls. i just need help, advice. anything. I don’t know why i am like this. it feels like he is ALWAYS lying. He has lied in the pass and recently tried to hide texts from certain girls. he says he has to do this because i get mad at everything he does. :( i am in love with this boy and he says he loves me. i just need some help through this time…

I am 18 years old. I am a senior in high school, but do Running Start so i attend the community college. I am totally and completely depressed. i cry night and day. i think of suicide daily. I am now on celexa, 30 milligrams a day. i have been taking for 5 weeks and have seen no results at all. I have been with my my boyfriend for over 2 years. he says he wants to help me, but it feels like a lot of my sadness comes from him. He is always busy, he has friends, girls that find him attractive and funny and he and everyone else finds him very talented and completely likable. I cannot sleep well at night. sometimes he spends the night with me and falls right asleep. I could say i am jealous. I am always worried about him. he says i am driving him insane by always getting jealous about him hanging out with other girls. i just need help, advice. anything. I don’t know why i am like this. it feels like he is ALWAYS lying. He has lied in the pass and recently tried to hide texts from certain girls. he says he has to do this because i get mad at everything he does. :( i am in love with this boy and he says he loves me. i just need some help through this time…