beautiful-soul

I have yet to have a boyfriend or a fiancee who hasn’t cheated on me a number of times, or told me he likes to dress in drag, or tell me that he had some random STD or had a whole other family, a wife, a girl friend, some random weird crap that makes me think” You have got to be kidding me!!!” My best friend in the world my father died. It’s as though somehow, I did something so horribly wrong, that I don’t deserve happiness. Now, I have opportunities to date some seemingly nice guys and all I can think is that they are cheating, going to cheat or do something weird and spiteful. I have to get over this, cause like the originator, ( in as much as I crack jokes) I want a family too and I want to trust my husband, because I know as lonely as I am, I can not do it ALL myself.