itssohard46

So finally i have made it a year w/o husting myself!! I am very proud.

Okay now about this time last year imade an account on this site and was reading all these stories about people who have done it for so long…and i wanted to be like them but nvr thought that i could be. But now i am. It is no longer a way of life for me and i have to power back. If there is anyone here who would like tot alk send me a msg on here. I’ll try to help as mucha s i can. I know there is only so much i can do but i’ll try. Hang in there everyone…..i know how hard it is … but you can do it…..... u really can… :)

Now that school is out i am a little worried. Now that i have more time on my hands… and nothing to look faward to when i am feeling bad.

But i think i will do okay… lately i have been very strong, and i am actually suprising myslef. I guess this is a sigtn of healing, and mving on.

When things get bad i still feel like i could … but i always find an excuse not ot. I am so proud of myself.

Everyone her ei wish you the best of luck… you can do it. I never though i could, and now i almost have. it is a great feeling, and i hope all fo you can feel it to.!!!

I am over 200 now. I am not sure what day it is really. I gues that is good. i j8ust know that every morning when i wake up i have not cut the night before. I still want to a lot, and it is a little depressing when i know i am over 200days but it doesn’t feel that far away yet. It should feel like alifetime away, but it doesn’t. Thre is nothing i can do about it right now… so i live my life day to day.

and on days when it gets bad.. and i am crying.. and feel like no one cares.. or whatever, i write in my book. I just filled one up totally. I am proud of it, becaue most of the pages are days that i worte instead of cut. Little thing like that carry me day, to day.. and i live.. STRONg

Everyone can do it… if they want to, i believe in ya’ll. I may not know you.. but i know that any person can do anything they want.. i am a liveing example.

Goodk luck everyone. P.S- i usually give good advice so if you want to talk leave a comment, and i’ll try to help any way i can.