jaded09

I’m slowly making progress – and being 15 doesnt help in this goal in anyway – considering I can’t work the machinery, although i’ve perfected the art of fondant in 90 degree weather and perfect souffle’s everytime – along with my own recipie book – yet age has more restrictions than experience. My employer graciously accepted me to being dishwasher – which you have to start somewhere and being an a hole myself find it rather pleasant being around others. And as soon as I reach 16 I’ll be on my way for sure- and getting a scholarship to a Le Cordon Bleu Institute would be fantabulous….. and in the next 3 years of my life.

Since my last month of 7th grade i’ve been addicted to coffee. I’ve always had about 2-3 cups each morning, just to subside the immense headaches I’d get. And I’ve just finished my Freshman year of highschool and I’m slowly weaning myself off of that onto tea….which is working out – sort of.

I dont know how exactly to be friendly, i never really see the need i guess. I’ve been told i lack compassion and i don’t know HOW really to be nice. I’m growing up in a ‘fend for yourself’ situation and such, so i don’t ever really have to be nice. And my friends ‘some of them my ex now because of it’ so i dont’ know HOW to gain being that….