jamiee_kay

Wooh! I’ve gained at least four or five pounds. I’m proud of myself, not only that I’ve been keeping it on, but I haven’t exercised, so yeah. I’m starting to tell where all my weight is going. Oh well. I’m just ecstatic.

He’s quite the most amazing guy I’ve ever met.

I’ve gotten over the fact that all guys want to get in your pants, I’m trying my hardest to trust him, which has become much easier and boy does he make me crazy. He’s sweet, funny and a gentleman, everything I wanted.

I don’t know how I hadn’t seen it before, I can’t say that I love him yet, but I can feel it growing. Boy, when he smiles it brightens my day.

Maybe thats what loving completely is all about. Caring about someone else more than yourself. When I’m feeling low and he’s around, I put on a smile and try my hardest to make him laugh. Not only does it make me feel better when I know he’s happy, I know it makes him feel better when he knows I’m happy. Thats what counts and thats what matters.

I’m trying desperately to believe everything that he says, but he says the sweetest thing and he is WAY older than me, well not way and I’m still considered legal to him, but thats not the point. I have some heavy trust issues, I know, and I’ll have to work on those before I can work on loving him. He is simply amazing though, just today he told me he was falling for him, and that he misses me so hes going to drive down from his brother’s house just so he can come and give me a hug. =]