januaryempire

this is the second car i want to get.. another dream car of mine. my boyfriend’s barber has a belair, it looks like a ‘57 model.. it’s this beautiful chocolate brown color.. i’ve never seen such a pretty car in my life.

it’s always been one of my biggest dreams.. finding my future husband.. and finally having that love.. letting this pent up love i’ve had just flow from every direction. the fact that i will lose him is unnerving.. but i accept it. i just hope that god is gracious enough to take us at the same time.. i don’t want to go before him because i don’t want him to suffer, and i don’t want him to go before me because i don’t want to suffer. i know i’d never marry again. i see how my grandma has been widowed and it really scares me. i wonder how she composes herself so well. that’s just my perogative.

i love god. i will never stop loving and worshipping my lord. ever since i got saved i’ve felt his presence everywhere.. it’s truly something unexplainable unless you are in this position. i do not force what i believe on people. i just tell people what i believe when they ask. it’s really up to you if you want to take that step or not. i know he’s done so many wonderful things for me, i could never repay him enough. he’s taught me to be fearless and love/respect everything. i thank him everyday for everything he’s ever done for me. once you see the light, you can’t be pulled away.