jdavis22

OK, first, this is going to be a long entry, I am in dire need to get it off my chest. I’m 22 years old and my dad left my mom and I when I was 9 years old. I’ll always remember that day because I woke to no explaination as to why he was gone. He was just gone. About a year later the truth finally surfaced, it turns out that my father had left with my mom’s best friend. My dad and her moved 1500 hundred miles away without even a simple goodbye or anything. A few months after that I got to talk to him and being nine years old I was very naive. He said he was very sorry and that we would see each other someday again. Another year went bye and of course he sent me cards for my bday and for christmas. Soon the cards stopped coming and I yearned for some kind of father figure so my mother packed some clothes for me and told me I was going to visit my dad(I was only 11).I was extremely excited. When I got there everything was awesome. My dad seemed so happy to see me. As the days I spent at his house went on, things began to grow sour. He would just stay in his room without speaking to me. I would try to go and talk to him and he would just get angry and tell me to get out. What a loser. Wow this is too long already. Anyways as I’ve grew older I tried and tried and tried to forgive his cold shoulder but to no success. I’m not sure, it seems like he doesn’t want to be my father. I’ve have come to terms with that over time but a couple months ago I found out he has cancer and I feel like I can’t forgive him regardless, he won’t let me forgive him. I’m very discouraged and I don’t want to feel guilty for anything. If you read this please write your opinion on something I can do.