Jeff

I have always wanted to grow a beard. Not because I think it would look good, but just because. I never shave on the weekend, so I start the beard, but come Monday morning I shave before I start work that week. I think everyone at work would think I’ve lost it if I started growing a beard. My dad would grow a beard quite often. It just seems like a man thing. Well I suppose it is a man thing since woman proably aren’t growing any beards, at least not by choice.

This seems to happen to me every Sunday. I start to worry about Monday morning, returning to work, and the entire week ahead. It doesn’t matter how long I have been working and/or doing the same thing I just worry on Sunday. I wish I could just learn to relax and take it easy. I just want to take work as it comes and not stress about it all the time.

Music means everything to me. I discovered that I had a “talent” when I was around 9 or 10 when I started making up songs on the piano. I then joined band in middle school and played a trumpet. I was actually very good at it but the peer pressure in school eventually took over and I took my last band class my first semester of high school.
I never stopped playing music at home. Sometime during all of this I was introduced to bands like The Cure, Depeche Mode, Yaz, Erasure, OMD, The Smiths. I got my first keyboard, and then my second before high school. I would write my own “new wave” music and sing and had a great time. Life wasn’t always fun in school but I was able to escape all of that while doing music. This is still true today.
I eventually studied music again in college. I was in a band for a short time. This was all great. But now I have a 8-5 job. I am not really happy with the course my life is taking. If only I would have been more ambitious and less self conscious perhaps I could have done something in the music industry. I am a 35 year old now. I know I’ll never be a rock star and I’m really okay with that. I just wish I would have done something with my life that I can be proud of and really have a passion for. I don’t want to be at the end of my life with so many regrets.
I am going to continue to make music for my own enjoyment and peace of mind.
iClash Music