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SO dislike the daily paying off of my landlords mortgage instead of my own. However…LOVE the freedom that renting affords me. Guess I’m on the fence and grass looks equally green on each side…for now.

I bought a SIGG reusable water bottle and LOVE it! I use a Britta pitcher to filter my tap water and aim to drink 2 a day (holds about 33 ounces). My energy level has remained more consistent since I began drinking water this way…maybe not so dehydrated?

sad little guitar has been living in the hall closet for 3 years now…needs to come out and play

Attachment to things I never use, look at, or am even aware of owning is another way of not letting go. One weekend goal for me is to begin Spring cleaning. Anything not used gets donated to a women’s shelter or to Goodwill.

Friends get the best and worst of us. They help us to create our lives. Some are gone, some have just gone far away…none are forgotten.

It’s hard to not judge the people who cause me pain. I know it’s a waste of my time and energy to blame others for their part in the messiness of life but stopping the bad habit is still hard…

I’ve stumbled through life for 8 years fighting against the first three steps (admitting I was powerless, believing a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity & making the decision to turn my will and my life over to my Higher Power) all because the fourth step (my personal inventory of character defects) scared me. I’ve avoided getting to know myself. Sadly, the main result was that I’ve shrunk from life, from my potential, from opportunities, from love, from all that matters. Tired of watching the years pass as my reflection in the mirror grows more foreign to my true self, I can proudly say that I am finally taking the necessary (sometimes painful, always illuminating) baby steps through the 12 steps and awakening to my life.