jels

I got back this morning from what was one of the most spectacular nights I’ve ever had. The music, the energy, the atmosphere, the lights… no alcohol, no drugs yet I was totally high and washed over with a feeling of euphoria. I didn’t want it to end, but I can honestly say I enjoyed every minute of it to the maximum and danced the whole 6 hour set through. I hope I get another chance to see him live again some day. He’s so charismatic and he brings his own energy to the experience: he’s always smiling and loving it just as much as the crowd…

I feel like getting rid of this goal… it is tied in with improving my own self-esteem and accepting the things about myself and my life, my past that I cannot change. As long as I am on that journey, I know that I will measure myself against other people (and pretty mercilessly)... in theory I know it’s futile, but it’s a package deal that came with years if not an entire adolescence of constant hardships. I look forward to a day when I’ll be enough for myself and know it without looking around, but within.

He who cannot forgive breaks the bridge over which he himself must pass.

George Herbert