I’ve realized that the reason my ex-fiance and I aren’t working out is this: He needs a “good girl.” A girlfriend that is wholesome and nice and sweet…And that IS NOT me.
I am a great mom and a good friend. I am strong and independent and so not wholesome. I’m the girl…how do you say it. I’m not the girl you take home to mom. I’m the girl you cheat on your wholesome girlfriend with. Not to be crude…but I dont want to get married. I’ve been married. I was the wife and stay at home mom. That’s not me. I’m the single mom that has her fun when my kids are at their dad’s. I’m the rocker chick that will punch you in the balls if it calls for it.
Jun 26, 09:43PM PDT | 0 comments
My 5 yr old is back in the hospital. He’s been there for a week. He’s violent and out of control. He’s being sedated with 50mg Benadryl, and Thorazine…none of which are helping…He is suffering so much. I am trying so hard to be strong and hold my head up high. I’m pooped and worried and under so much stress on top of this. My ex-husband got laid off, so I am no longer receiving child support. WHICH, cuts my income down to 339.00 a month. How the hell am I supposed to raise these boys on that? On top of which, Conner’s hospital is 1 1/2 hours away from home. Which means I’m currently squating at my aunts house…and having to use a ton of gas and money to eat. URRRG!
Jun 26, 09:27PM PDT | 0 comments
With both my sons in the hospital at the same time, (see be a better mother) then my mom and sister were nearly killed in a car accident just 2 days later. I had all 4 in 3 different hospitals for about a week.
I know that it was during this time that God was truly carrying me. There’s no other way to explain it. I was strong and dealt with everything that needed to be dealt with. I didn’t fall apart or barely even cry.
I have all 4 of them at home now, still recovering, but alive. God truly was holding all of my family in his hands that week and now. Never before have I found my faith so strong.
May 27, 10:00PM PDT | 0 comments
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