I was diagonsed with stage 3 ++ cervical cancer 3 days after my birthday on March 3, 2009. The Dr.’s wanted me to go in on my birthday but, I knew that I wasn’t going to get good news some how. One week later they put me in for an emergancy surgery before my midterms. Now I am in jeopardy of losing my funding for college and if that happens I will not be able to continue. Just to make things more complicated I have been in and out of a walking cast for two years. It’s hard because I am a musician and I am currently learning opera at CSUN to become a performer. I have had one surgery already and now they are saying they have a treatment for me. I have waited a month for the appoinment I was suppose to have today and my Dr. cancelled. Needless to say I broke down. Next week I have another appoinment for my left foot and I have my bipopsy results next friday to see if they have slowed down or hopefully caught the cancer.
It is scary but, I have hope that something good will come from all of this. To think that for a while all I wanted to do was be able to walk again and be able to work out. I think they are still very part of my desires but, I can’t do any of those things if I don’t survive this.
I love music and I can still play and sing. But, I cannot perform and that has caused me to lose even more motivation. I am very sad but, I still have hope that something good will come from all of this.
