jessiii16

i have a best frined. but…i can’t stand her! i’ve matured recently. it’s my true self, but i’ve just recently had the courage and confidence to scrounge her up from the depths of myself. when i’m being myself, she’s constantly bugging me about how i’m being weird and sad and how she doesn’t like it. this bugs the crap out of me because i’m just being real! not my fake giggly, airhead persona that was my protection from the world basically. i need someone who is…

-intelligent
-a thinker. doesn’t take information that is fed to them through the media as absolute truth
-creative
-daring

-attractive :P
-good fashion sense
-calm
-likes to have a good time
-HUMBLE
-compassionate
-NOT an attention whore. or a whore in general
-likes to do meaningful things in life, NOT tv!!
-has huge goals and ambitions in life
-big heart

i’m not vain when i say this, but i’m good at many things.
i don’t know what my ‘calling’ is though. maybe it’s something i already know i’m good at…but i’m holding myself back from doing it all out because i’m wondering, “but what if … is my true passion????”

IF YOU HAVE ANY TIPS FOR ME ON FINDING IT MESSAGE ME :D

my nervous habits continually cycle through and take one after the other of a random habit. i can’t stop it!

my previous, annoying ones have been…
having to look to the side, up, or down and holding it. if i didn’t look “severely” enough or long enough, i could “feel” it and i’d have to do it over and over and over again.
counting
blinking
tracing squares/rectangles with my eyes. if they strayed from a corner or a side even a bit, i could “feel it” and would have to retrace and retrace and retrace it, over and over.

well recently i’ve been clicking my molars together to the tunes of songs and I CAN’T STOP!!