jessssMK

i was gone for 3 weeks, then i eventually was found, my mum was like destroyed, and had privet detectives looking for me and all, i didnt realise how much she cared till then, in a way it was worth doing, but it really wasnt.

i’m over pittying myself, it makes me feel selfcentered.
after so any things i’ve tried to do to die [deep cuts, overdoses, trying to hang myself, jumping off a building, ect.] if i’m not dead yet, there must be a reason i’m alive.
i still have deprettion, and the thought still enters my mind, but now i’m in control. i will be happy again, and fine.
find something better then wanting to kill yourself…
its pointless.

i really wanted to get back with him, but insted we became bestfriends, and i got back with my other ex, over and over again, it wasnt worth it, i kept breaking this guys poor heart, and my bestfriend [origanlly the guy i wanted] and me kept fighting, everything just got stuffed up.