jesstan

my best friend got a new boyfriend a while back, after i had been with mine for a year and a bit. She had had a few unhappy realtionships, but this one is really working out. Only now, every minuite is spent with him. She has no time for me, and i get so jelouse that every time i speak to her im on the defence, which makes her on the defence and hense our friendship is going backwards. Its not like i havent got a relationship of my own, i have. Just, she never seems to argue with him, theyre together all the time and dont get sick of each other or get stressy, theyre constantly at one anothers houses and i guess, im jelous that not only ive lost my best friend to her guy, but also, i dont see my boyfriend as much as she see’s hers (were either working or doing sport or something).
I want to be genuinly happy for her, but im just jelous.
I dont know how to get over this!

Id like to grow an aloe vera plant because not only is the sap a great healer, but it will make me feel like im doing something to bring nature into my house. I will do this.

Id like to do this. I still don’t know how to distinguish between the two so i think this will be a hard one – especially in my relationship.

i guess maybe ill learn when i learn.

sometimes it just seems easier to believe it will be different and it will change, or they wont say that again.

But sometimes they do. and sometimes they dont.

this will be a mission.