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Take a cruise. (read all 2 entries…)
Untitled 8 months ago

NEW DATE SET!!!
We are planning an anniversary cruise in 2011 – YEAH – that DOES seem like a LONG time, but AT LEAST we have a PLAN again!!!



write a short story.
Untitled 8 months ago

OK – technically, I write short stories for my children all the time, but what I meant what write one to SUBMIT for publishing. After the first of the year, I am going to acquire the software for a program like DragonSpeak to eliminate all the typing time and hope to have things well underway by spring!



apologize to an old boyfriend I really hurt
"I'm Sorry I broke your heart!" 8 months ago

At 23 , I began a romantic relationship with a very sweet guy who’d I’d known for 10 years and had been attracted to me ALL THAT TIME. From the VERY BEGINNING of the relationship I KNEW that this was really not much more than a “fling” to me, but he was looking for marriage and anticipated that my willingness to FINALLY go out with him was his chance to win my heart. I quickly saw that he was head over heels into this thing, but NOTHING was changing for me – I still found him to be a wonderful, attractive guy, but just not THE ONE for me. Unfortunately, I fell victim to that “I just don’t want to hurt him” scenario that guys ALWAYS tend to give girls when the reverse occurs. I was NOT forthright with him about the LACK of depth of my feelings compared to his own, and when it all came out in a LESS than appropriate setting he felt VERY deceived and deeply hurt and I have never heard from him again.
I would LOVE to have a chance to sincerely apologize and share my regret for not just stepping up and being direct with him sooner, but I have had NO LUCK locating him!!! I want him to know that I realize that my attempts to protect his feelings and spare our friendship indirectly RUINED whatever shreds of friendship we may have been able to salvage after a relationship.



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