Crack really is the devil. Believe it or not, my daughter’s father broke up with me. WOW!! That’s crazy. I just can’t understand why. I’m the one who is a great catch. It is his loss. I should really be counting myself lucky, but I LOVE HIM, very much.
We were together on and off for 10 years. It’s hard to let go of someone when you just get so used to them being there even if it’s not that great. I didn’t meet him a crack head. It’s just that 4 years into our relationship, crack reared it’s ugly head.
I just want a family. I have to get it through my head that we will never be a family. He is with someone else now, and it’s time to face shit like a woman, and sit in this uncomfortable feeling, and get over him. I’m worth more than the crumbs I have been thrown. I know that, but I still long for him, and I can’t understand this.
I have lost alot of weight. I’m on anti-depressants and going through counseling. I will get through this, but it’s not easy. Right now, I avoid all of his calls, and he can’t see his daughter until he gets supervised visits. This is really hard, but I know it will make me a stronger person.