jfizz

ok!!
im young!
and in shape!
im not fat
im actually hardly over 100 pounds
yet i still dont like my body?
every morning i wake up and look in the mirror, and after sucking in my cheeks and looking at my profile im quite content with how i look and make a promise to keep myself looking that way
however the second i walk out the door i dont feel as confident and happy with myself
i have some very skinny friends
and im sure they envy me in some way
but i just dont understand how i can feel belittled by everyone without even being able to see the distinct comparison between me vs. world
its not like we’re always looking in a mirror
thats why ive come to the conclusion that in the morning i actually dont have real confidence
more like “this will do”
so when i finally step out into the world
what i think about myself is crushed instantly

this will pass
but a faster metabolism would sure help

believing is like one thing you need to be born doing
you cant just start believing one day. it takes years to have faith not only in yourself but in others. believing you can do something is not truely believing
its more just like
yeah i know.
not like
wow thats cool

that doenst make sense.

i want to be captivated and in complete awe for once in my life
i think once that happens
ill believe