i just made one for work. In fact it wasn’t that unpleasant at all : /
i still have to make one to the bank but this one i’m really scared to make so i’ll wait a lil bit moar : |. Never do today what you can postpone indefinitely is pretty much a jin’s motto (unhelpably).
There’s been very little going on at all in this department lately. Well, not that there’s anything ever happening but usually there’s at least someone i get to fancy or have a pathetic crush on or whatever. But lately i haven’t really met any new jin-ettes, gotten in touch with not-new jin-ettes or actively tried to maybe trigger a situation where jin-ettes might pop. It’s been mostly suicide-by-work and looking up shoes online (i don’t buy them, i just seem to have that weird fascination) and totally-not-exercising-or-socialising-or-planning-the-future.
I did get with a jin-ette i had mad jins for last summer, which i guess left me all giddy, and so subsequently while that taste of giddiness was still there i was maybe a little less shy than before and with relative ease started sparks of things with other jin-ettes (this summer was my big season for crushes), but i still didn’t show enough initiative for any of those sparks to lead to anything concrete.
Still, because my lurve life is such a desert, i want to document those bittersweet failures made of mini-victories. Maybe it will get me back in the mood or something?
Also, i keep revisiting with great nostalgia the happy feelings that my mini summer-fling with miss b left me with. As good as it feels to do so, i feel at this point i’m just kind of going fetal with the whole thing and need to move on. i shall document this sweet memory too then leave it where it is. Cause although it woke me up at first and made me want to maybe go get moar, quickly when the ‘moar’ part failed to show up i just kind of fell asleep again, a much sweeter kind of sleep since made of merrier thoughts, with the object of my yearning being, for a change, an actual, fresh souvenir that i can turn around and elongate to my liking, but apathy nonetheless. As poetic as it is, feeding like that forever on a moment is kinda sad. Well, my heart had very much been starved so it makes sense. But it was meant to put the life back in me, not be a beautiful kill. So yeah, bring on the laydeez already or something.
August 2012 wasn’t so adventure and action heavy, but well i tried and since it was, you know, a year + ago, well I might as well mark this as completed…!