I have broken the second hard-drive in 3 years
- i give up! – my wedding playlist i was perfecting was on that thing!
....arrrgggghhhh so annoyed i could just break something right now!
[throws pillow at wall…. reaches for the Ben and Jerry’s]
....calm now! – still annoyed though!
I have always wanted to walk gracefuly in heels.
I need to practise for my wedding day.
My fiance is 6 foot 2” (9” taller than me) – i’m only a mere 5 foot 3” i would like to wear heels at my wedding. i just need to learn how to walk and dance in them :S – trouble is i’m so used to my my lovely 5 and 3/4” newrocks to give me my 5 foot 8” height, lol
I can’t dye my hair at my present job (damn) – BUT i will dye it next year when i’m back at uni
Then a year later i’ll have to return to boring brown or maybe i can get away with a dark red – i will be married and trying to get on the career ladder.
I’m paying my student overdraft back £50.00 a month till it’s paid back
I have decided that i am definetly going back to uni next September after my wedding. To finish my degree and then hopefuly with the supervisory experience i’m gaining at my present job and the management degree i will have recieved i will get a decent job! One i ACTUALY ENJOY!
I have just openned a new bank account so that i can transfer half my wages each month to another account to save for my wedding – it means i don’t have much to spend over the next year, but it will be worth it!
Just by chating with my mates girlfriend out of courtesy, i think i have found a good friend – we are already organising girls nights in. I’m glad he’s got a nice girlfriend THIS time!
I’m starting to learn what really anoys my fiance about me, he was always too sweet to ever tell me, but i want us to be honest with each other as relationships do need work from BOTH sides and communication. i will now strive to be more understanding and thoughtful with these issues, without changing myself too much as he loves me just the way i am!
I am starting to really feel like me and fiance WILL last the distance – i did have a few doubts but i think everyone has that thought somewhere in the back of their mind… don’t they?
We’ve booked the venue, the photographer and the cake. Giving our notice of marriage is next! Can’t wait!
Me & my fiance have been getting ‘four wall syndrome’ we have been snapping at each other and getting under each others feet as we live and spend ALL and i mean ALL of our free time together. So i have been trying to see my friends more and give him space because, life is about experiencing things and not just working and sleeping which is what some days seem to be like for us – in general i am happy i think we just need to work at giving each other space occasionally as we both have stressful jobs.
Ok i have lots of regrets in my life, but i can’t change that now, and i realise that, good news is the last few months i’ve made a lot of big decisions, i’ve decided not to go back to uni for another year which i think was the right decision, even though i don’t particularly like my job, it’s alright and it’s nice to have some money coming in. Also broke out of a long relationship which looking back was totaly the right thing to do, i’m a lot happier for it now and i’m met a wonderful guy who is now my fiance. Everything is pretty good, which in reflection to how i was feeling when i wrote this as one of my goals is a complete turnaround.
Ok, well i live in a place which is CRAP for gigs, but been to a few this year, went to see Hayseed Dixie which i had a wicked time at thanks to Mike and Darrell, also went to Galsto, highlights had to be seeing Madness and the Bootleg Beatles – even though i’m not a big fan of the beatles. Got tickets to Korn in January, which will bee good :)
I had my ceremonial last takeaway last night! My fiance has promised to help me eat healthier and get me exercising more so hopefully this year i will drop a few pounds and be happier with myself in general.
I go to the same rock club practically every week, there I’ve made lots of new friends, some of which have become quite close. It’s a close community – everyone tends to know everyone, so you get to meet alot of people.
I broke out of a 3 year relationship a while back now because it wasn’t going anywhere. I’m now engaged to the most caring sensitive and gorgeous guy – the sort i thought never exsisted, i’m so incredibly happy, we are planing to get married in Sept 2009.
My favourite colour is black and i go to a lot of rock clubs therefore i pretty much ALWAYS wear black, recently i’ve been teaming black with UV colours such as white, pink and green – very cybergothy, lol. Here’s some pictures:
Ok, so have been soooooo stressed recently, working and trying to keep my home life running smoothly… missions… anyway feels as though i don’t live anymore but just exsist. work… sleep… work…sleep… work …sleep… it’s all i seem to do and it sucks! Sooooooo i REALLY and i mean REALLY look forward to the weekend and most of all ROCK NIGHT!!! after a hard week all i wanna do is chill with my mates, dance and headbang the night away.
I am trying to complete my ‘43 things’ two of which happen to be: ‘be a better friend’ and ‘make new friends’ hence every week i put on my best dress, my biggest smile and i socialise. I am the shy-ist person EVER but i make the effort to not be for just those four hours a week! i don’t drink and therefore am there sober trying my best to loosen up enough to chat to whoever happens to be out. And nine times out of ten i regret it. For this reason:
Every single week i try to make friends, every single week i get hit on by the very person i’m trying to become friends with, i ALWAYS casualy mention my boyfriend, i ALWAYS casualy mention how ‘great’ it is to meet someone i can get a long with with out them trying to get into my knickers, but by the end of the night they are always trying to persude me to be unfaithful to my boyfriend. Are there no people left out there who understand morals? Every week i come home to my boyfriend feeling guilty when i haven’t done the slightest thing wrong, maybe i’m a flirt and i don’t realise it? – i don’t know, all i know is i feel so lonely, most of my boy mates constantly hit on me and for some reason i just don’t seem to get along with girls, so i have very few girl mates. I just want to be able to make some friends who see me as a person and not as a potential notch on their bed post.
Ok, got a new job, it’s not exactly what i wanted to be doing but it will pay the bills and anything has to be better than my last job :S
