John Jones

This is a beautiful goal to have in one’s heart. I resolved to make this part of my daily quest the moment I read it. I have a friend that’s always telling me the questions are more important than the answers. That and …. PASSION!!!

There is an emptiness inside of me that I’ve never been able to name. My entire life I’ve criticized organized religions…their dogmas, rote rituals, and exclusivity have always repulsed me.

That said, I’ve met people from different faiths that embody the essence I wish to achieve. In one way I am jealous of the formal methods of “communication” that are found in the rituals of certain religions… and I’ve even attempted to adopt Christianity to have a certain “method”, but it didn’t work.

So I talk to my “god”... I try not to simply ask for things, but to find the strength inside of myself to achieve them instead. “Prayer” seems too formal and/or strong a word for what I do, but it’s the only appropriate one I can think of.

I’m so tired of being lost, of feeling my spirit has been left un-cared for. The fear that I’ve never connected with myself and the world in this fundamental way is at the heart of my sadness.

So I try to pray for connection, for understanding…for fulfillment. I pray someday I will live that way.

Amen

I grew up typical white bread cooky-cutter american boy… i’m only now finding out about my heritage, and it’s frustrating to feel afloat culturally.

My girlfriend on the other hand is half-hispanic and fully embraces her culture. The cuisine, the holidays, and of course the language.

I love her so much and want more than anything to be able to converse with her in her native tongue.

Thanks for reading y deseame buena suerte!

-J