I recently had the opportunity to understand much more clearly what this is all about, and realized that maybe I really didn’t need to put this here. I had been confusing the attempt to achieve some preconceived notion of what I thought my family would have expected of me to approve and be proud of some great accomplishments, with the much simpler reality of their pride in seeing me strive towards anything that I set my mind to, and even more simply, their pride and love of the person I am always being for and towards others. I’ve learned that if anything, I think what they would hope to be more proud of in me, is the person I am for and towards myself, and ironically, showing me that sometimes the efforts and focus to improve and do the right things may be precicely what make the fun and excitement of life so much more difficult to enjoy, and actually making it that much harder for them to be proud of that side of me. I want to say thank you to my entire family for guiding me in this direction and letting me see that for myself, and to say how proud I am of them as well. I promise to keep going and stop worrying about it – after all, the ultimate goal in all of this is to be a better person. What better way than taking the time and care to enjoy fun and excitement, which I can finally see as one of the most important motivators in life and love. :)
jonny_nut's Life List
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1. have normal sleep hours
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2. stop procrastinating
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3. Get organized
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4. smile more
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5. relax
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6. Study more
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7. be more confident
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8. establish useful routines
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9. exercise regularly
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10. drink more water
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11. simplify my life
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12. Worry less.
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13. focus
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14. get a job
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15. practice yoga
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16. Keep a journal
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17. Read one book a month
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18. keep in touch with old friends
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19. try new recipes
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20. learn to sing
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21. learn to paint
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22. learn to dance
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23. learn to meditate
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24. Learn to play the guitar
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25. learn another language
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26. Make new friends
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27. organize my bookmarks
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28. start using del.icio.us
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29. Finish my website
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30. be more creative
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31. Learn to fly
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32. learn to sail
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33. live passionately
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34. love and be loved
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35. Graduate from University
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36. Tell the people who i love, "I love you" more often
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37. appreciate what I have
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38. marry my best friend
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39. Deepen my faith
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Recent entries
The best way is to stop trying so hard
3 years ago
I think I'll try this...
3 years ago
...without making it one of my predefined goals. I don’t know if this would actually be considered giving up, though. :)
Learn sign language
3 years ago
I’d write this entry in sign language if I could, but think it would take a very long time to draw the hands gesturing the letters in sign using ascii art. :P
