“I don’t want to belong to any club that would accept me as a member.” I think a lot of times this happens to me, and I end up sabotaging good relationships because of it. However… it could also be due to the fact that every girlfriend I’ve had since the 7th grade has moved away at some point while we were dating. I don’t think I can take another long distance relationship… it might kill me.
jordanisoptimistic's Life List
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1. have a really, really comfortable bed
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2. write and illustrate a children's book
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3. cause a stir in my hometown
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4. start a local 'zine
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5. let friends crash at my place for weeks on end
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6. stop smoking cheap cigarettes
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7. run for a political office
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8. learn Mandarin Chinese
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9. publish a novel before i'm 25
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10. be more fashionable
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11. be regarded as a "nice guy"
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12. start saving money
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13. own a beat-up motorcycle
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14. brew my own beer
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15. learn to skateboard
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16. quit being lonely
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17. act more cool when talking to famous people
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18. be there for my brothers
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19. graduate from college
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20. do more stencil graffiti
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21. get lots of tattoos
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22. start running again
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23. play the drums... well
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24. live in China for a year
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25. stop sabotaging good relationships
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26. become okay about hallucinating
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27. get in a fight defending someone's honor
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28. only drink good beer
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29. stop missing payments on credit cards
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30. have a girlfriend who puts me first
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31. play a solo acoustic show
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32. win a literary award
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33. start eating healthy
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34. read the bible cover to cover
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35. be happy when my friends are successful
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36. live up to my potential
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37. start an artist's collective
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38. have more male friends
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39. build a sound-proof room in my house
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40. knit a sweater for someone special
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41. get a bulldog puppy
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42. Surround myself with positive people
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I have anxiety pretty bad, and when I’m under a lot of stress I start to hallucinate every now and then. I have sleep paralysis and hypnagogic hallucinations (which means I start dreaming, but my eyes are open and I’m still basically awake.) Well this used to freak me out quite a bit, but now it’s becoming more and more common place. I would eventually like to either stop having the hallucinations (which have begun to slightly occur in the daytime as well) or at least become okay about having them. They still make me kind of freaked out, but someday I hope they can just become integrated into my normal life.
Ok so I still believe in chivalry. I open doors for ladies, I (generally) pay the check, I even give shoulder massages like its my job… but I’ve never been in a situation where I could just deck some dude for impuning my lady’s reputation (or any lady’s reputation for that matter). So just once I’d like to be able to lay somebody out for being a jerk, I’m sure this will happen some time in my life, if not the near future.
