josefw

Everything and everyone is getting on my tits today I can’t seem to be in the same room as anyone without wanting to lash out and telling them to f@ck off just because they are making a small amount of noise by walking by me ooft I really am not a nice person to be around today I get like this when my depression is bad and I guess today is one of them bad days I need to get out of this house and do something… anything ooft I need friends I can talk to about this stuff.

I hate the NHS in Bradford. Went to the doctors today to see if there was any way I could see a councillor sooner but it turns out a have to wait over a month! When I was in Manchester and I had my “flop” I got to see a councillor the next day! and they sent people to talk to me every other day just to see me through the week. What a bag of wank the Bradford NHS is… oh well I will just have to cope with out something I could do with out but something I have to do. bit of a ramble sorry but I’m getting good at them aha anywho enjoy the rest of your morning, day or night.

All I want is for today to pass as quickly as possible. My days seem to be turning into weeks and my weeks into months nothing is passing as quickly as I would like it to… all I want is some positives, but I cant seem to pick them out of this situation. I’m stuck in the shit hole that is Bradford due to having no-one being arsed to take time out to do anything. God all I want is some way out of this I cant even seem to remember the last time in the past few months when I was even a tad happy the best times I’ve had so far is when I cant seem to feel anything as its a change from feeling this crippling depression. Before I would tell my self tomorrow might be better but lately tomorrow hasn’t been better. Ah fuck it sorry for banging on at you all again.