i havent cut for aboutthree weeks but i hve erges all the time, sometims i think there is a hole i cant fill but i guessi will keep trying hard not to cut anymore ,, tanks for listening
joshuacm's Life List
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1. be happy
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2. listen to good music every day
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3. monitor patterns in my moods
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4. do yoga and/or deep breathing every day
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5. live in the moment
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6. jump off a building
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7. type with 10 fingers
323 people -
8. write more poems
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9. visit all 50 states
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10. Get to my goal weight
112 people -
11. learn to like myself
122 people -
12. Go skydiving
6,576 people -
13. have a tea party
185 people -
14. donate my heart
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15. paint a mural
285 people -
16. take good care of my health
7 people -
17. drink more water
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18. become more talkative
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19. be outgoing
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20. Take more pictures
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21. travell around the world
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22. buy an old house and fix it up
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23. be awesome
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24. stop running into walls and falling down stairs
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25. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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26. stop letting people hurt me
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27. find myself
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28. Prove them wrong
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29. Be healthy physically, mentally, and emotionally
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30. talk to other cutters
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31. support other cutters
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32. Get a tattoo
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presence
All around me,
I see the sky light up,
Bright eyes surround me,
I hear her crying,
But I don’t see her,
She is lost,
I feel her presence,
But I don’t see her,
Her voice is soft,
Calm as the wind,
Blowing past my face,
I feel her soothing touch,
I feel her love caress me,
Then disappear in the wind,
Minutes turn into hours,
Hours turn into days,
Days turn into months,
Months turn into years,
I feel left alone,
Crying by my self,
Holding her in my arms,
Seems such a fond memories now,
I don’t feel right,
When you’re so far away from me,
Bruised and withered I have become,
Seeing who I used to be,
Seeing the life I had,
Looking at the past,
Looking at my future,
What future?
My heart shatters,
I feel a strong pain,
Never subsiding,
Never dissipating,
Ink stains surround my skin,
Black,
Dark circles,I fall deep into a dream,
I see a bath tub always,
Me and the color red
Who knows?
What my subconscious is trying to say to me,
I don’t know,
Do you?
forever
Seemingly sweet,
Shades of blue curl in the sky,
Hearts free,
Combining as one,
Strength as one,
Holding close,
Breathing softly,
Looking into eyes of jade,
Hearts entangled,
Becoming one,
Joined together,
My heart beats slowly,
Feeling you hold my hand,
Pushing me down,
Making love to me softly,
Caressing my body,
Feeling your soft skin,
I feel you shake,
We combine as one,
We are one heart,
One mind,
forever
