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joshuacm

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joshuacm's Life List

  2. 1. be happy
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  3. 2. listen to good music every day
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  4. 3. monitor patterns in my moods
    		1 person
  5. 4. do yoga and/or deep breathing every day
    		1 person
  6. 5. live in the moment
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  7. 6. jump off a building
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  8. 7. type with 10 fingers
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  9. 8. write more poems
    2 entries     		146 people
  10. 9. visit all 50 states
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  11. 10. Get to my goal weight
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  12. 11. learn to like myself
    		122 people
  13. 12. Go skydiving
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  14. 13. have a tea party
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  15. 14. donate my heart
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  16. 15. paint a mural
    		285 people
  17. 16. take good care of my health
    		7 people
  18. 17. drink more water
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  19. 18. become more talkative
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  20. 19. be outgoing
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  21. 20. Take more pictures
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  22. 21. travell around the world
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  23. 22. buy an old house and fix it up
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  24. 23. be awesome
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  25. 24. stop running into walls and falling down stairs
    		6 people
  26. 25. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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  27. 26. stop letting people hurt me
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  28. 27. find myself
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  29. 28. Prove them wrong
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  30. 29. Be healthy physically, mentally, and emotionally
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  31. 30. talk to other cutters
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  32. 31. support other cutters
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  33. 32. Get a tattoo
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Recent entries
Stop cutting (read all 6 entries…)
long time but i still feel like doing this 16 months ago

i havent cut for aboutthree weeks but i hve erges all the time, sometims i think there is a hole i cant fill but i guessi will keep trying hard not to cut anymore ,, tanks for listening

Jul 15, 2008, 09:09AM PDT | 0 comments


write more poems (read all 2 entries…)
presence 2 years ago

presence

All around me,

I see the sky light up,

Bright eyes surround me,

I hear her crying,

But I don’t see her,

She is lost,

I feel her presence,

But I don’t see her,

Her voice is soft,

Calm as the wind,

Blowing past my face,

I feel her soothing touch,

I feel her love caress me,

Then disappear in the wind,

Minutes turn into hours,

Hours turn into days,

Days turn into months,

Months turn into years,

I feel left alone,

Crying by my self,

Holding her in my arms,

Seems such a fond memories now,

I don’t feel right,

When you’re so far away from me,

Bruised and withered I have become,

Seeing who I used to be,

Seeing the life I had,

Looking at the past,

Looking at my future,

What future?

My heart shatters,

I feel a strong pain,

Never subsiding,

Never dissipating,

Ink stains surround my skin,

Black,

Dark circles,

I fall deep into a dream,

I see a bath tub always,

Me and the color red

Who knows?

What my subconscious is trying to say to me,

I don’t know,

Do you?

Jul 18, 2007, 11:21PM PDT | 1 comment


write more poems (read all 2 entries…)
forever 2 years ago

forever

Seemingly sweet,

Shades of blue curl in the sky,

Hearts free,

Combining as one,

Strength as one,

Holding close,

Breathing softly,

Looking into eyes of jade,

Hearts entangled,

Becoming one,

Joined together,

My heart beats slowly,

Feeling you hold my hand,

Pushing me down,

Making love to me softly,

Caressing my body,

Feeling your soft skin,

I feel you shake,

We combine as one,

We are one heart,

One mind,

forever

Jul 18, 2007, 11:18PM PDT | 0 comments


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