yeswayjosé

i took the mpre and might have passed, maybe. i almost didn’t make it because my shower that morning was too long. couldn’t seem to conjure the sense of urgency i maybe should have had. no matter. i made it on time and i did how i did. cool.

i made an impromptu birthday card for the cycling guy and it turned out awesome. a really pretty piece of sloppy, handmade artwork. :)

caught up with an old college friend. we go way back and had so many adventures together, but we hadn’t spoken for about a year. so we caught up today. the sister love is still there. <3

options. it’s good to have options. i still can’t figure out cycling guy. is he jerking me around or what? if he is, is he doing it because he thinks i like it? and do i? my attraction to him is intense and insane. i think it’s that he’s tripping on his larger-than-life personal power and i start tripping on it too. our interaction reminded me too much of my last boyfriend – the power play, the hot/cold confusion. i loved that guy more than any other and the heartbreak was just as grand. as much as i really like this guy, i can’t help but see disaster in his shadow. so after an evening of getting jerked around by him, i called the young designer. we met up late. he was kind, fun, easy-going, so pretty, and just easy. we finally kissed. it was not as heart-racing as with the other guy, but it was nice and gratifying after all the chatting and dancing and late-night story-exchanging. he wanted to stay the night, so we spooned all night and late into the morning. lovely. we’ll hang out again this week. yes, it’s nice to have options.

i didn’t study as much as i could have, but i’m not sure it would have made much of a difference. i narrowed most of the questions down to two possible answers and then pretty much guessed between the two. fortunately, everyone who came out of the test had the same experience. whatever. we’ll see how it really went in about five weeks!

i actually managed to study after dinner. after a long day, i usually i throw in the towel by 8 or earlier, but this is how i will get things done.

lunch with j.c.

chatting with e.c. i like that she calls me when she needs cheering up.

wu warming my lap.

my apartment. it feels so cozy to me.

chatting with my mom online. she’s deaf, so it’s much easier than talking on the phone. far less stress!

that cycling guy is as busy as i am. he canceled a date because he was swamped but was convincingly apologetic. even though i completely understand, i appreciate that he recognized how that might annoy me. maybe i’ll see him saturday.