julchen

this has always been a dream of me. leaving everything here behind, starting something absolutely new and exciting. i don’t know how it turned out to be australia, but somehow i decided that i want to go there for one year.
next september, after my final examins in school i wanna leave for sydney and work there as an aupair.
i sometimes have doubts or even fears concerning my wish but i know that if i don’t do it, i’ll hate myself for the rest of my life and i’ll terribly regret it.

well, i can’t say i’m unhappy with my life right now, but there are just so many things i want to change. the relationship between my mum and me is pretty bad and i suffer a lot from my familiy’s current situation that makes me wanna go away forever and leave all that behind me.
but i guess that i have learnt to handle with these things and i’m still learning, hoping that all those experiences are worth all my tears and energy. that they make me broaden my horizon and learn from them for my future life.

i’m quite sure i’m gonna reach this goal :o) i really don’t feel like a grown up and i don’t think i’ll ever feel like it. there’s just too many thing i enjoy so much about being young. i can behave like a totally fool if i want to, i can laugh and cry and scream and jump whenever i want to. and those are all things that i shouldn’t do when i’m an adult.
and i don’t think i could do without these things, without this little kid in me. life would be terribly boring without it!