juliemae

—stayed below budget, bought only what I needed and a few things I wanted, saved a lot of money and do not feel deprived at all. I enjoy what I have and love the new efficiency.
—streamlined my household
—started meditating
—became more patient and kinder with people, and reaped the rewards

I can definitely change what is not working for me now :-)

Recently I’ve made it a goal to seek the sublime in life, and I’ve started keeping track of all the small-scale, usually unnoticed moments of beauty and wonder that happen every day. As a result, the sublime has grown enormous in my life, and it’s made me feel so much more alive.

My walks at night have seemed timeless, and I come home feeling like I’m floating. Sunsets give me a sense of the eternal. Yesterday at the train stop I was in total awe for at least ten minutes, watching a bird foraging under the rubble for food, and bringing it to its mate. I’m fascinated with things I never would have been a year ago.

As an aside, I just realized it’s been exactly a year since I was laid off from a really horrible, soul-draining day job, working with people that did absolutely nothing for me. And I definitely wasn’t doing anything for myself. I’d gotten so bitter and lifeless. The moment I was laid off everything changed. This last year has been full of so many lessons, and so much growth. I’ve really gotten to get quiet and understand so much about life. I’m so thankful I was given that chance.

I admit, I’ve let life pile on me again—worrying about my job, the economy, getting angry at fate, wringing my hands wondering if i’ve made the right choices lately, and over choices I still have to make. I’ve been on the ground, right where I was knocked, trying to get the gumption to get up.

I really long to be somewhere else, out in the world. I can only get there by working and creating.
I have to remember to hold tight-even tighter now- to my vision of the life I am creating for myself. Moreover I need to remember to HAVE FUN. Wherever you are in life, why NOT have fun?