I’m not a huge Rage Against the Machine Fan, but I can’t help but get psyched up about the antics they pulled at my capitol in honor of the RNC.
Very creative, brave, and with a touch of humor. I just might buy their albums now.
I’ve gotten off track dealing with something that needs to be taken care of. And I’ve been thinking of giving this up. All of those “let’s be realistic, let’s think about my future” thoughts have been getting to me.
I just happened across a video of the guy I’d asked to play the lead (who much to my surprise responded to my inquiry, and to my further surprise gave me a “maybe.”)
He definitely has the face I want for the character, and I have a feeling he could play him well.
But, neither of us are getting any younger, and the character is a certain age. Plus this person is getting to be fairly well-known. The time definitely is now. Even if it doesn’t work out, at least I can say I seized the opportunity- that I took his answer and ran with it all the way.
I still do need to get over the issue I’m dealing with now. And I’m working on it. But this goal is becoming more of an impetus to get over it.
I’ve always loved this song and video, despite the music being out of the genres I usually listen to. This song seems to come to my mind every year at the end of summer, and brings back nostalgia for summers past.
I love the images and storytelling aspects of the video. Pretty arthouse stuff for an 80s Top 40 video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tNGgCraSvbo
And Don Henley’s looking good in it too!
knowing that summer will come again soon, and I’ve resolved each summer will get better than the last.
the calmness I’ve felt lately, maybe from the small amounts of meditating I’ve been doing.
My growing sense of becoming a responsible person- including my resolution to set aside a little money for Mom and Dad every month, in case they need it someday.
Billy Bragg, again, for cheering me up, again.
that I’ve made it this far.
That I’m slowly getting excited about life again.
I dreaded the meeting with the person that I assist at work, but it was actually pretty good. It shook up the schedule and me out of my boredom just a little, and made me start thinking about looking ahead. She seems to sense my dissatisfaction at work, and sincerely offered her help in making my job fun and interesting. Also related how someone she knows is working on his advanced degree as I’d like to do, and the steps he is taking for it. That gave me just a spark of inspiration, and all i need is a spark right now.
The new all-natural makeup I bought a few days ago works GREAT!
TEA. Seems to make everything better. Especially Darjeeling tea, with Chai cookies. Om nom nom…
Though I’ve felt low while ruminating on things lately, I haven’t “let myself go.” I’m in good shape and feel good with how I look. My apartment for the most part is organized. I’ve made it a priority to keep myself from slipping.
Though summer is officially over, the great memories I have of it.
That all I need to concentrate on now is the basics: eating well, sleeping well, exercising, and working through my “get over the wall” goal. No other pressing issues, no other pressures.
I feel like i have so much to make up for. Many years. And trying to figure out what went wrong. It really hurts to think about, but I know I have to figure it out, resolve it.
Once I get through it though, I am not looking back. This is it. Then my life is mine… no more distraction, nothing holding me back and keeping me. And no more ruminating.
I don’t care what little “emergencies” come up… I am making this priority #1 tonight.
Seems I never think this is worthwhile to make time for until after I’ve done it… much like exercise.
I am looong overdo for a session with my meditation CDs and aromatherapy. I think it’s just what I need to make the cares of the past few months melt away and to see clearly again.
Library night!!
take all books back, skim the ones I didn’t read (all on screenwriting,) and return them.
Then, no more reading- get writing.
the silk camisole and cashmere tee-shirt I’m wearing today. A little (affordable) luxury really brightens the beginning of the workweek.
getting to try salmon jerky this morning.
having had a great three-day weekend, doing some guilt-free creative loafing.
a clean, organized bathroom.
my meditation CDs- they really work!
Billy Bragg’s Myspace, getting me in the groove.
I’ve started eating (Ok, drinking) breakfast again.
I’m eating quality food and taking care to get more vegetables.
I’m taking powder-form vitamins instead of the concentrated tablet form (much easier on the kidneys and better absorption.)
I finally sprung to buy all-natural makeup (and it’s not much more expensive really, especially considering the care for my delicate skin and the peace of mind it gives me.)
I’ve been exercising every morning for the last week.
Using the clay mask every week.
steering clear of “convenience food” and sweets.
watching the sugar.
meditated yesterday with great meditation music, will make it a daily habit.
I have found that, no matter how negative my thoughts may be at the moment, they will fade if I stick with a diversion for 15-20 minutes. I had gotten discouraged in my cycling through bad thoughts and moods, not knowing that getting out of them was just a mater of time, patience and determination.
Got the Labor Day weekend off to a FABULOUS start! Got up at 7:00 (not 6:00 as I’d like, but I’m getting there. And for a weekend day 7:00 is a big thing for me.) Did my exercises, had a protein shake and iced black tea, two ginseng tabs, and headed out the door at 8:30!!!
Took a nice long bike ride (which I am overdo for this summer) on a great nature trail. It really felt like a nice getaway from the city. I took the trail further than I had and explored some areas I’ve never been to, even a city I’ve never been to. I found the cutest little downtown that looked like one from a small town. A handful of decent-looking bars, a GREAT antique shop, and a bead store. Really quaint, relaxed area.
I biked back to the city and went around the lake trails, and stopped in at a second-hand store where I found the most wonderful silk dress—in my size!! And SO CHEAP!! I snatched it up along with a pair of great-fitting jeans (a rarity) and a second-hand-new bag. Paid $45 for all of it.
What a beautiful summer day. The only thing that could have made the day out on the town even better would have been pizza and a beer. But there’s always tomorrow. And Monday!
Got back home, had a cold bath, made two pairs of earrings, and am now making plans to do something tonight…
I read an article in the Utne Reader about a woman conducting yoga classes in an Afghan boys’ orphanage. The boys withstand near total neglect in dingy, cold, dirty conditions, barely even talked to most days.
But soon after the boys took part in the yoga class, even the orphanage staff couldn’t help but notice a difference in them: they were more polite and friendly, peaceful, and smiled a lot more.
And the pictures: The room dim and stark, the boys dressed in tatters, but they lay so peacefully on mats in corpse pose. A room full of precocious Buddhas. There is one particular image of a boy, probably nine or ten years old, with a carelessly shaven head and too-small sweater, sitting in the lotus position looking absolutely serene.
http://www.utne.com/2008-09-01/Spirituality/The-Most-Beautiful-Thing-Ive-Seen-in-Kabul.aspx
Yoga can change the world!
Some days I feel I have to really stretch for it, but there is always something to be grateful for.
getting a thank-you (a really thankful one) from a coworker for a little task.
another three-day weekend that I will use to renew and recharge.
a sunny day for taking a walk on my break and concentrating on my breath.
When I’d had a bad day at junior high and it felt like no one cared, the whole world was just mean, and other juvenile sob stuff, I’d come home and turn on the T.V. to Oprah Winfrey and felt so much better. She talked about interesting things that mattered, wasn’t afraid to cry on T.V., held people’s hands while they cried, listened, did not tolerate meanness, and was wise and funny, this savvy, down-to-earth mother figure. She got my mind off of me and made me feel a part of the larger world.
Through everything, Oprah was there.
I’m getting a little weepy now :`-)
Makes me want to cut the therapy and go out and get a T.V. again.
Resisting the 2 for 1 pizza for lunch and having wheat cereal and fruit.
having rice and plain vegetables for dinner last night.
exercising this morning.
making an effort with my appearance today.
getting out of bed closer to 7:00 than 8:00.
recording my activities and accomplishments for the last week.
making an effort to connect to others, and not caring so much if it was reciprocated or not.
slowing down and being courteous with people, trying to treat them as I would my parents.
I wish I could find even a snip of it on YouTube. Or just a face shot of Venus Flytrap trying to get up off of the floor. Classic!
I’m a couple months early in thinking about this, but I just LOVE the concept of the Day of the Dead. I’m not superstitious or very into tradition, but the idea of everyone taking a day and night to welcome back loved ones who have passed on is comforting, and gives me- I can’t believe I’m actually saying this- warm fuzzies. Pulling out a chair at the dinner table for the “guest,” taking time and care to make them comfortable with all the things that they loved in life, reminiscing and gathering with family, takes all the mourning out of death and makes it another celebration of life.
And I love how festive and colorful it is. None of that Grim Reaper creepiness that so many cultures associate with death. Skeletons are made to look cute, vibrant. I really wish this would catch on more in the U.S.
aye yai yai. Between Fark and general net browsing, I’m not doing so great on this. If the choice is between data entry and reading a flamewar, Wikipedia trivia or IMDB entry, my weak-willed entertainment-deprived self will go with the latter.
But, it’s all about willpower. And payoff: The sooner I take my job seriously, the sooner I am out of here!
