juls52

I am getting there…slowly but surely. My hair has reached my shoulders and I can put it in a ponytail! A very small ponytail, but none the less, a ponytail! Yea!

I am feeling very troubled right now. I don’t know if I did the right thing. I wasn’t very happy before even though I thought I was and told myself and everyone else I was… but now that I’ve pretty much ended it, I’m miserable. It wasn’t bad before, just not the fairy tale I wanted it to be and when I sat down and really looked at it and tore it apart and analized each and every part of it I realised it wasn’t exactly what I wanted and no matter how much I wanted to change it I couldn’t. Not because I don’t know how or was afraid… I litterally have no control over changing it. And so it can’t, won’t be done. At least not now. If it ever will, I don’t know. And so now here I am. wallowing in my sorrow and mysery. I’ve been here before and it will pass, I just wish I could pass this part because it really hurts. And then I think if maybe I should have left it alone. Just stayed with it and been sustained for the most part…. I wish there was an easy answer. I wish I could know the outcome and really make an informed decision based on what will happen but I’m not psychic… I can’t predict the future and so I suppose I can only trust my instincts and hopefully it was the right thing and I will be better off in the long run. For now, I will just mourne what was and one day find it again.

all the acrylics came off…two fell off and the rest were taken off. I do have some nice white tips now! I got a manicure and will hopefully keep them out of my mouth. So far so good…been 2 days without a fake-free-finger-nail nibble. Boo Yeah!