So I got asked out yesterday, and I said yes. And I’m scared, and still wondering if maybe I’m not a relationship-person, and thinking that there’s so many ways for this to go terribly wrong. But he’s a lovely guy and I didn’t want to say no and so who knows, maybe I just need to learn how to not be on my own. It’s not love but it’s not nothing either.
Jess's Life List
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1. feel beautiful
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2. get my driver's license
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3. pull off a scavenger hunt
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4. wear a bikini at the beach
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5. watch the notebook
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6. compile a photo album
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7. take a photo every day
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8. meet criss angel
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9. see the red hot chili peppers live
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10. make the most of it
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11. fall in love
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12. read the bible
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13. try yoga
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14. go vego for a week
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15. own a house with secret passageways
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16. complete a random act of kindness every day for a week
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17. repay my debts
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18. go to a postsecret event
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19. take up a martial art
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20. go cliff jumping with blake
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21. spend some time with my guitar
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22. learn to swing dance
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23. see the aurora borealis
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24. accept that everything happens for a reason
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25. save $200
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How I did it: 1. Make a postcard.2. Think about something that you've never told anyone, but that you need to get out of your system.3. Write your secret on the postcard, and mail it to 13345 Copper Ridge Road, Germantown MD, 20874.4. Wait to see if it shows up on www.postsecret.blogspot.com. Read how I did it…
How I did it: It took me a while to come up with each thing. I would think about aspects of myself that I liked, and add it to the list. I didn't put them in a specific order. Read how I did it…
How I did it: It actually took a bit of commitment to write this letter. I had the thought a good three weeks before I actually sat down and wrote it. But in the end, I sat down, wrote everything I could think of that was happening in my life, as well as asking what was going on with my friend. It took maybe half an hour and a few pages, and it was fun! Read how I did it…
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Me, laura and ben went to coogee beach tonight :) it was the first time that just the three of us had hung out in aaaages. We took a million photos (on the jetty, on the sand, on the jetty from the sand, on the sand from the jetty…) and made stupid jokes and laughed like small children and had an amazing time. then we drove around, got lost, made kinky handprints in the window fog, and laura got hopelessly drenched in the pouring rain. it was a brilliant night, and definitely one for the “make the most of it” list :)
“I thought love was only true in fairytales, made for someone else but not for me…”
I’ve been on my own for so long, and for the most part happy with it, that sometimes I do wonder if maybe relationships aren’t my thing, and perhaps I just wasn’t meant to fall in love.
But it occurred to me today that maybe I do deserve to have what I want. I just need to decide what that is. And if it’s more than just spending all my time with friends or by myself, then so be it, right?


