I'm doing 38 things
ring ring
3 years ago
when we marred, I couldn’t afford a real diamond, and whe wanted a nice ring. She has worn a “good” fake for nine years, and I’d like to save enough to buy her a real one because she deserves it.
Andrew's Life List
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1. save my marriage
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2. grow old with my love
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3. be more tolerent
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4. appreciate what I have
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5. give my wife my complete self
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6. forgive my parents
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7. landscape my back yard
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8. take my wife horseback riding out west
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9. create and market an invention
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10. not be afraid of rejection
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11. teach my daughter to fly fish
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12. expose my ddaughter to the out of doors
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13. hunt more with my son
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14. travel withou having to camp
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15. visit WWII battlefields
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16. spend a day at Arlington
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17. have my mother finally stop judging me
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18. buy my wife a real diamond ring
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19. confront my parents
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20. show and demonstrate love
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21. become a better husband
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22. help my wife with problems
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23. feel sucurity in my marriage
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24. become more secure in myself
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25. communicate with my wife better
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26. get into a constructive hobby
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27. spend more time with my family
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28. own a boat
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29. pay off all debt
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30. be less controling
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31. finish learning blues guitar
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32. have a vacation property
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33. be surprised by my wife
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34. read more
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35. be more honost about my emotions
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36. skydive
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37. prove I can change my attitudes
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38. take dance lessons with my wife
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Recent entries
On the rough road to recovery
3 years ago
My wife had left me for what I thought was an affiar…It turned out to be much deeper. The night she left and the days after, I discovered a whole series of events over two years that proved to me she had some sort of “mental issues”. After both of us filing for divorce, and she spending a week in hotels, and as it turned out sleeping one time with a man from out of state, and realizing some 14K in hidden c.card debt, and layers of lies that hadto do soliciting attention (they were not malicious, just odd) I welcomed her back into my life.
She has suffered from severe self esteem issues for a long time, I just didn’t see how they had been manidested. She is beautiful, smart, a good mom, kind, hard working…but she saw non of this.
Knowing she was “sick” I can, and have forgiven everything that led to this trauma. I love her deeply, and she is seeking out help to get her self right. I, as a loving person need to forgive her, support her, and be here for her as she improves her well being.
the hard part is now! She feels so bad about what she did (to me, daughter, family, friends)that she can’t forgive herself, nor can she accept mine. It is putting me in a tough spot as I am commited to seeing this through. With her not being able to feel anything but pain right now, how do I cope with the waiting?
