I dunno, work made me question some things last tuesday I almost quit, I got into a situation where I wanted to use my judgement and I was nice to a child and this was deemed as unacceptable and a waste of time and resources. I felt rage because the world is a shitty place because we don’t reach out to eachother but when compassion is shown we’re fucked. So I came into work late, I need to stop. I need to need to need to stop. I’m going to get myself on very thin ice. I need to stop. I feel like if I put things out there, the fear of people reading it will remind me, if I go back on things it makes me an asshole. I did however manage to watch all of sailormoon season3, because I remember someone said that “the green hair girl and the short hair girl are lezzies” and abandoned it the way I abandoned xena and well, lauren. I guess I want to revisit some stuff. I am frustrated I bought Lindsay’s perfect gift but it came back flawed, so I wrote an angry email and no one has responded, its been a week, I want them to fix it. I am displeased. I wrote an articulate email, and no one will write me back, even just to say there is nothing that can be done. I had to cancel plans with her due to promising her the gift and thinking it would be resolved quickly, and it’s been a week with no contact from them, and she’s always so busy.
Last week I ordered a product and got my friend all excited about it. I told her that I got her a present and it would be here soon… only when it was arrived I was the one who got surprised. On the 17th I was told my order 22027**, a colour changing mug was shipped and on the 21st I was able to pick it up, I am giving it as a gift for a friend and I am actually embarassed to even give it to her now because it is so chipped coming out of the box, it was well sealed, securely taped and wrapped in two different sizes of bubblewrap and even so, it is clearly a factory/manufacturing error, not the kind of flaw that could be happen from being dropped, its something that happened during the actual product being made. The bottom is very rough along the edge. If it were one or two scuffs it would be something one could over look but it is very chewed up along the bottom. The picture itself came out beautifully, even though 11oz is a little on the small size ideally, I still think its a nice mug. I had encouraged all my friends to buy easypix because there are some very creative things that can be made for custom gifts, and it means a lot to people when they see someone go above and beyond and give a little extra effort to make something one of a kind. Unique gifts make people feel really special. I was even glad to be supporting Easypix. It’s associated with Shopper’s Drug Mart which is a Canadian company, but I’d rather give the Americans or Whoever else money if they can do it right the first time. I am telling my friends to not bother with easypix if this the kind of quality that comes out. I am going to tell them, $17.99 is not a bargain, and that if they are willing to pay shipping to just go onto amazon http://www.amazon.com/Color-Changing-Photo-Mug-Personalized/dp/B000YPZG32 It would be worth paying extra because apparently you get what you pay for. They’re selling an identical product except it’s an even better one. Their mugs are even microwave safe and machine washable which you need for this modern era, no one can be bothered to handwash something to save it from chipping when it arrives chipped. I hope that this was just an honest mistake and that something can be done to restore my faith in your company because I loved the ability to go in store to pick it up instead of waiting to have it shipped to my home like other sites might’ve. But now with the weekend upon us I am considering post-poning a trip out of town to visit my friend now, on such short notice and having to reschedule for when we both have days off, this has inconvenienced me and set me back the money I paid.
- K Kellar
I also woke up and thought, I should eat healthy, so I go to buy a fruitbowl, and there was a dead fly under the lid and I felt gross and the next day took it back and got my money and instead bought junkfood which gave me the cramps. I’ve been at Darren’s the past few nights. I had AN INSANE weekend, essentially here is what happened:
I must be doing something right, because I’ve been asked out more in the past 2 months than my whole life, I play it off like, no no I’m in a vulnerable spot, but really minus my on and off femme, I’ve got no real desires. I’m not opposed to dating transboys, it makes me feel faggy but thats not a bad thing, its just a very different thing. I’ve been asked out by 2 bi girls, one is my exact type if not for distance, the other batshit crazy even for me. But I’m projecting a likability. It’s fantastic. But here’s what a typical weekend has been like: I was up til 11am, went to sleep, woke up for 3 walked myself to work, worked til 12, 12:10 cashed out, darren was there, and like hai come 2 my howze! And I was like, yus! however you can’t let me stay past 2, 2:30 at the latest.. so 5am rolls around and I’m like I should go, and 5:30 I’m at my place and well, I did laundry, I showered, then it was like 7:30am, so I coma’d then got up for 9:20 so I could be at the train station for 10:30, and hamilton for just after 1, I keep getting invited to move to hamilton, I would in theory, I like it in general, I even didn’t crumble when I saw my fictional dreamhouse, it’s different than when kade said we’d dance on the beaches of thailand, I knew I wouldn’t be living in the brick house with the dome, the upstairs to be my music room, I know its not going to happen, just if it could, thats where I’d be. I hung out with kristen at her party. I would’ve been in total kennymode had I not been intro’d as kateR and had there not been a proper transwoman there, I figure, she has enough to deal with without a gendervariant in her spotlight saying, I’m nonop but pronoun me! It seemed like a wasted effort and almost cruel since she was more serious than I was. Even though at Caroline’s party I intro’d as Kenny, but it felt right and no one slipped up. I made sure everyone know they were able to call me kenny, and explained why, so I didn’t feel bad. The way I see it, if someone offers me the choice, I’ll offer them the choice, but when I’m squeezed into a box, then I feel awkward and threatened and like I have to have a preference, being called kateR doesn’t feel acidic. Its my name. I love kenny too though. I have told my mom about kenny. But the party was amazing, 4chan references, losing the game, half an hour would go by, and I’d lose the game again, and well this went on, funny thing is no one really won the game. I also talked to some people about w0w, and totally all for the hoarde, which is good cause even as a n00b I don’t trust anyone who plays alliance. I legitimately made friends. I have cool pics on facebook of all the adventuring. I thought I’d be able to kill 2 birds with 1 stone and get my plugs back. Alas no. Nic wanted to read wetmoon and couldn’t because I’m missing some. I had to buy $65 worth of plugs online because there was no way around this, I’ve been wearing the same plugs for almost 3 months, they’re starting to irritate my ears. I also unrelatedly had THE WORST MOUTH ULCER it wasn’t even a canker sore, it was like, my tissue was dying. It was painful and awful and 4 different liquid medicines later and its still pretty bad. I didn’t go to the doctor but if I can fix it at home I’m not going to the doctor. I ended up staying the night with nic. I adore her. We had mcdonald’s at the harbour front. Saw boats, the sunrise, a dog rip a goose apart while its owner punch it in the face, feathers everywhere, like the sorority girls pillow fights as depicted by hollywood except with more honking and snarling. I was DISTURBED. It was not okay. But yeah I was up til 4? Up again at 6, then couldn’t even sleep on the train cause I double binded. I wore 2 binders. I didn’t get home til 12:30 a last minute prescription, then went to melissa’s until almost 4, and I’ve been in between insomnia and coma ever since. The double binding though, omfg…I was at that point where I’m like, okay so my body is trying to tell me something.. But it wasn’t too too bad I’ll just probably never do it again unless I NEED to pass. I passed lastnight. When I was turning my fruitbowl with the dead fly, the guy was like “Okay so theres a guy, err I mean a girl, here and she’s unsatisfied with a product?” but I know in his mind he thought I was an emo boy. I can’t wait until vancouver, no matter how short lived, being like, hey whats up, oh my name is kenny. Feels fantastic. Even kenny and she. I don’t like nonsensical “ze/hir” but that’s me. I’m in such a good place with gender. I don’t know what to do as far as my job, but I’m gonna try to pull up my socks and go at it again professionally, showing up on time. On time. I got sloppy and this can’t happen again. On time. Can’t show up late. On time. On time. This is my creedo, my wish, my mantra. Show up to work on time. Only I can prevent forest fires.