I'm doing 7 things
I’ve been happy lately. And my ex is not in the picture. It’s a sure sign that I can grow and live without him. Life goes on. It’s completely liberating and yet foreign to me. Yay!
jvo's Life List
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1. lose 10 pounds
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2. be happy with myself
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3. pay off my debt
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4. get over my ex once and for all
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5. drink less
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6. get better at surfing
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7. open my own business
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How I did it
It made me
mature and healthy. 
How I did it: I used to feel ugly, dumb, and worthless. I stopped being so hard on myself and started to live life. I went out...not just to party, but to explore things around me. I went on hikes, picked up painting, joined a book club, learned how to garden, smiled at strangers, learned to cook, stayed late at work, made time to catch up with old friends, write thank you cards, and overall, appreciated the little things in life that I had going for m… Read how I did it…
It made me 
How I did it: I went to the gym. I jumped into work and received TWO promotions in one year! I'm now moving from Boston to LA with my company to open up an office and manage a team! I started to paint. I promised I would read more. And I stuck to my mini-goals for myself. I STOPPED going out. It was fun at first but then I realized it was making me miss him more because drinking and dancing with dudes that are in it for one thing made me feel cheap. I … Read how I did it…
Recent entries
I called today against all the advice of my friends and family. He’s dating someone and I knew that. I’ve dated others. But I wanted one last time to see if we can erase our rocky past and work on us. Don’t give it all up. It’s not serious with her he says. But he won’t work on us, because with us, it’s all or nothing, and he is not ready for all anymore. Maybe in a few years after we totally cut things off. He refuses to put effort into this relationship. He doesn’t deserve my time. I cried today and it was mourning the end of us. Now I can move on. He has already. If he ever circles back around, (I doubt it but if he does), it’ll be too late anyway. Today is a last day I ever put my cards on the table for him. I remember the reasons why we’re broken from this day on and will not dwell on the good stuff. I look forward to making myself happy and maybe find someone better in the process. There is someone better!
I’ve been in previous relationships that I thought validated my worth. Instead, they lowered my self esteem. I’m working on myself. This time, for real. I’ve been working out, spending time learning about new things, saving money and not settling for relationships that drain me. I’m having a great time overall with friends that care about me. I’m working on me. I’ll have my pity days once i a while but then I always remember that it’s all small stuff compared to the issues others face everyday. I’m lucky—I have me!
