I love the Lord, and I fear Him
but my flesh is weak, and my mind is puzzled
sometimes my lust overcome my sanity
O Lord, can you please take me away?,
I am so sad that I becoming hypocrite too;
say that I love you, not prove with an act.
How can I get over with this cycle?
How can I understand every situation during the battle?
my body is getting weaker, because I fell so depress
lunch is not important for me anymore;
because I failed to be a good servant of God.
I lost 3 kg, I wasted 3 weeks
and I still not wake up from my dream
what should I do when the trials come, when I feel proud about myself
that I can do it in a week?
Lord, forgive my sins, for I have no more to say about this
you yourself examine my heart, you know the best for me.
perhaps, Can you take me with you when I won the battle?