malachi prophit

have been my favorite band as long as i can remember and never once have had the chance to meet them or to go to a show…am willing to do anything legal for a chance to meet them….and when i say anything i mean anything….if its legal and they are there to watch i am all about it…just give the word….

i found this crappy little tower, well partial tower, in the trash at a local medical supply shop and took it home if nothing else just for the harddrive that was in it. i got to looking at it more at the house and noticed that it had a amd athlon tm in it. all i knew previous to this was that amd were really good processors when they first came out. so i said what the hey. i powered it up as it was and this is was i found out about this machine that was dubbed “The Krazy Hobo”. a 750w power supply on a syntax sv266ad motherboard with a socket a amd athlon tm 1.4 ghz cpu. it only had 64mb of ddr ram but i had more sticks from a previous computer. a 64mb nvidia graphics card with svideo out was nice but i changed that out to a 128mb nvidia card that works alot better. the hard drive was an 80 and the operating system was windows xp pro. so i was very pleased with what i stumbled accross that day. there was no cd drive so i started there. i bought a cdrw from walmart and replaced the 64mb of ram with 512mb. snagged a monitor and a new case from a friend and the machine was ready to be used more properly. recently the motherboard died out from all the many drive swapping that i have put it under. so i opted to get a shuttle mk49vn board only to realize that the athlon that i had wouldnt work with it. so i had to order a new cpu. this time a faster more up to date chip. an amd athlon xp 2200+ 1.8 ghz socket a. the case never had fans and the face plates have always been missing but i have added 3 fans and leave the sides off of the case to increase the cooling. all in all for a machine that i have had now for more than 2 years this thing is a wonder for a starting price of free. granted that i have put more money into the overhauling than i truly wanted to but. you get what you pay for. and i love my Hobo. very reliable machine. best part is i built it.

i have had so many friends die over the years. to suicide or murder and car accidents. i cant cant on my fingers how many. i am 23 years old and i really just cant see the point in continuing to live anymore. my wife left me when i was 20. my last girlfriend got pregnant and left me taking out unborn child. my current girlfriend doesnt seem to want anything to do with me. and i am currently serving 5 years on parole for stealing cars. purpose of that was to make amends with my wife. though plans for that fell through. so here i sit. lonely depressed and a victim of emotional distress. what to do? all i can see at the end of the tunnel i am in now is suicide. i dont know how i could do it. i dont want a mess left for someone else to have to clean up. though the way i look wont matter cause no one will show up for my funeral. i dont want it to hurt cause i have hurt enough already. i dont want it to take a long time to happen cause i am ready to go. i have tried before but it didnt work. so what is there left for me to do…any suggestions that anyone has i will gladly accept. email me at punkrock_prophit@yahoo.com with a subject titled suicide and ill gladly read them…otherwise they all get deleted. thats about all i have to say…not sure if this will ever even be read. malachi