kailynnsmom

Well I went backwards and did the things that made me depressed to begin with. Why did I believe that the person I would give a second chance to would make a change. It didn’t happen, he is still the same no disregards for my feelings. Why me? Is it that seriou? Must it become your agenda to make me feel like a lower than scum? I guess that would I get for believing in you. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. I’m so tired of this shit. I just want out the this foolishness. After FAther’s Day I done, I’m sick and tired, I had enough. I just want to be left alone. I plan to start back seeing the therapist.

I’ve been working out 2-3xs a week for the past two months and I haven’t lost a single pound. I gain 4lbs of muscle actually. My thighs and chest has went down a couple of inches but thats about it. What gives?????

Well on March 13, I had an initial assessment with the pyschologist and she diagnosed me with moderate depression. I always felt I had something wasn’t right because I tend to slump into depressed modes at times. Well Apr. 1 I’m scheduled to have another assessment for medication. I am now taking anger manangement(if you want to know why see my other entries under I hate my ex)and will be having one on one sessions with the psychologist on alternate Fridays. I plan to make the necessary changes to avoid falling into the misery mode.