karoki

‘You never know what tomorrow will bring, the person that hates you today might love you tomorrow.’

I have loved him for 2 years – he knows how I feel but didn’t accept or reject me. He just said ‘ok’ and walked away. I always thought that if I told him my love troubles would end: he would either say no and I would get over him, or (I beg the heavens.) he would say yes and we would live happily ever after. (I know that would be unlikely but… a girl can dream, right?) Instead he said ok, and left me standing there confused more than ever.
He is in my head 24/7 and when he smiles the whole world seems like it’s so much more beautiful.
He loves her, and for all I know he is probably as desperate about her as I am about him. His previous relationships never lasted more than a week and he has a label of someone who ‘does and runs.’
So why do I still love him so much?
I have tried to love someone else, I have tried to forget, I have tried to pretend I didn’t … but when I saw him it was all pointless. So, now, I will make him love me. I know, that a girl should know when yo give up, and I know I should’ve the day I saw him…but I just can’t.
I will make him love me, even if it takes me a hundred years and we’re both old and wrinkled.

‘True love means not giving up, even if the other half begs you to.’

Since I was a very little girl I used to love dancing, both my parents do it and they even met whilst dancing. But as I grew up and had less and less time I stopped doing it. Now I want to again, but I’m absolutely terrified!
I get so nervous about dancing with other people there, I get nervous that I won’t talk to anyone and won’t make friends – when others will, and I’ll be a loner.
Everyone says it is the stupidest reason of all not to start dancing again, because I don’t go there to make friends.
But just the idea of them watching me makes me feel physically sick.

I think the first step to doing that is actually getting over the person that will never ever ever love me back.
And maybe stop desperately looking for a guy everywhere.
Start being nice instead of shy.