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today I went running and I felt nauseous immidiately…but I’m going again tomorrow and take it slower.I started drnking my 8 glasses of water a day and I make sure I get AT LEAST 7 hours of sleep..I really wanna be fit.

I’ve never had classes, but I know I have a passion for it. And whenever I see someone dancing ballet on-stage it hurts …knowing I never will be able to. So I’m looking for classes to start..I know I might be toold..but I don’t care. o..you’re never to old. This has always been a dream I’ve kept to myself…but I want this..and I’m going to get it :D

I wrote this when a half hour before my 18 b-day on july 20, 2006. It’s kinda a reminder of what I wnat out of live and what I’ve learned in the 18 years of my life as “a kid”.

It’s just half an hour to my birthday. And I’m feeling a mixture of happy and sad. When I think of what I’ve accomplished this year? Not really a lot. I am trying harder. This year was the worst of em all and I’m not lying or trying to be dramatic. But it also changed me. I guess that this year really prepared me for becoming an “adult”. At heart I will always be a child and I’ll never forget the years as a kid. I’m not sheltered from the world anymore. Everything’s out in the open. I know more and I learned how to deal with a lot. Things I never thought I could handle…I handled. Not always the best way but I managed. I got my heart broken and I got several dreams chattered. The important lessons learned? Life is never what it seems and the world will crush you. It’s all about surviving. Never trust the people around you, but always be the one they can come to if they need someone to confide in. I learned that no matter how hard everything might be never take it out on others…It’s not a game of give and take and an eye for an eye will never satisfy your needs. Do upon others as you would have others do upon you. I’m trying hard to live by that rule…I’m trying. So as my journey of being a kid ends..And I step into the world of more mistakes, bigger dissapointments and harder decisions..I take all my mamories with me. The good and the bad…and I’m trying not to forget even the smallest one. I guess I’ve never felt more prepared in my life to continue what I’ve been put here to do. To change the world by just trying…and to be the best that I can be…while still remembering that life is all about learning and never dissapointing the kid inside.

-kate sontohartono